i'm not sure if what i'm feeling apathetic or depressed, but there's a blankness about me lately that just feels weird. it's like, i'm usually pissed, i'm realizing how much of a dysfunctional relationship i have with my entire family, and it's just weird. justin, jochi, and me had a talk about it the other day, and then i started to think that ( Read more... )

i'm just writting for no reason, but i'm done.

it's been a good night, but i can't sleep ( Read more... )

what is this thing that i am turning in to? i've completely inversed myself. all i really want to do is sleep, and that screws me up even more, i go to sleep at 4 in the afternoon and i wake up at 3am and i can't go back to sleep, so i go back to fatigue during the day, keeping the cycle going. it's official, i'm asexual. women are turning out to ( Read more... )

i'm having a break-down. on the way home from orlando, we stopped at a red light on the way, and there's a little strip mall, and there's a shoe store, and it was called the Shoe Supermarket, but the street light was blocking the S, so it said "hoe Supermarket." and i thought "this country is really going to hell" and i dunno, i'm depressed. today ( Read more... )

i have to get up in 4 hours to disney, this is bullshit, dad is busting my ass about going to new york next week, fuck that, i don't have time to breathe anymore, much less get my ass on a plane and lose 6 precious days of my life just to go ride my bike and hike through the apalachian mountains which are two things i shouldn't be doing anyway, i ( Read more... )

these past three weeks have been pretty eventful, it seems like people break up more times than they breathe these days. whatever, can't complain, it's been like this for me for the past 4 years, nothing new this time. it's just weirdish. i'm sick of having this guest in my house, and i have to go to fucking disney world on thursday *yuck*. and i ( Read more... )

after all that's happened in the past few years, it has all boiled down to this: 3 in the morning, sitting in front of my computer, alone in every meaningful way. i'm dissapointed in myself, i messed up. i'm not talking to my dad that much anymore, mom is too busy to talk to, and when she does have time for me, i don't feel like talking anymore. i' ( Read more... )

well kids, another ending to another shitty story, glad that's over with. all y'all niggas can't fuck with me. it was ok, i've had better, had worse, but all in all, it was acceptable. it was probably the most fucked up run ever, but it's over for good. so let's all rejoice in my new-found liberty.

i feel amazingly pissy. i don't know, i just wanna stay home all day like i used to, but w/e.