*Dusting*

[supermanme]

Something I may never get,
A heart so enthralled
A love given so freely
A friendship treasured
Above any needs

I... don't know- before you think, no, I'm not sad. Maybe- no, quite- disappointed that this point has actually come. The point where I regretfully admit to myself the futility of trying, and concede to the point that she probably doesn't care

Comments

[greendayfan]

Holy crap you posted! I'm proud! Of both you and the fact that you posted hehe. We both know I think you should have done this a long time ago, but we both also know that the heart and mind don't always agree. It's ok that you still love her, something that had that kind of power would be sad to see let go of completely. I still love Adam, even though I'm not in love with him. I'm beginning to think it's impossible to not still love the person who was your first love, at least a little in some way or another. Jason, I know you may not believe it right now, but there is such a special lady waiting, just for you, for you to come and sweep her off her feet and ride off into the sunset. It may not happen right away, but it will. Believe me. Don't epect to get 100% of your heart out of Oregon, because I don't think that will ever happen. But 99% is ok. I love you Jason, and I know it's been a hard, long road, but it will be ok in the end. Take it one day at a time. *hugs and love*