In other news,
I'm excited b/c my brother's band is opening for The Annuals!!!! :D :D :D

Eagle in the dark
Feathers in the pages
Monkeys in my heart
Rattling their cages
Found a way to bloom
Another ghost to follow
Said its only up to you
It’s the hardest pill to swallow

~Gary Jules

As I said before:
So much inner dissonance...I really don't like thinking about it as a constant battle...it's rather depressing that way.

I keep forgetting that she is no longer here. I come into my room ready to greet her, only to find an empty corner...

Well, as of this minute I am home (for a month!...can I survive?) and I am desperately searching for a cheap rug online for the dorm. El says that she honestly doesn't care what color, and she made a good point of saying that it may be soiled, so I am attempting to look for something that is not cream colored. Maybe something black?!? Something ( Read more... )

She said she didn't see any "red-flags" from The Incident. I feel weird today, like how I did in the last few years of hs. I love my friends so much though...they always support me whenever I feel like this. Thank you all so much! They are so good to me, I don't even know how to thank them. :)

I'm not hungry and have so much work I don't know how I'm going to get all of it done...

I just want to go home.

So lately I haven't been feeling very good and I don't know why. I think just out of the loop maybe? I don't know. It's so hard to explain. It's like this sensation that I don't fit in very well and that I'm utterly unoriginal and uninteresting. I don't know if I am ever going to find love, or ever succeed in what I want to do in life. The ( Read more... )

A day once dawned, and it was beautiful ( Read more... )