It's important to have a keen eye to the future.

So I figured out. I figured out what it is I was going to bargain. Maybe am bargain. I'm going to give up my little green vice. I've heard that some people said it changed them, and maybe the more heavy usage was the problem. At some point in the day, I figured that out. And at some point, I realized that I was bargaining for her back. And I ( Read more... )

It's over. She's happier. It's ok.

It's all going to be ok.

Maybe this is a front, but I think this is what I'm feeling, at least what I should ultimately be feeling.

It sucks and it hurts, but it happened.

Here's my belief: She just needs time. She has a lot going on. She just needs to figure it all out, and then we'll be together. She'll realize she misses me and that it was pointless to end it ( Read more... )

There are seven stages of grief ( Read more... )

Love is fleeting, like all things that make us happy. Love, I always assumed, was different. I used to describe the happiness as the feeling of Christmas morning. Though that eventually weakened with time, as other things in my life held more gravity, it never stopped making me happy. Unfortunately, love isn't simply about being happy yourself ( Read more... )

Oh my god, I'm not dead. This journal isn't dead. I'm not dying. I'm living. This journal is live.

porno.

I just thought of nothing. Not "nothing" conceptually, but nothing actually. My mind was purely blank. The only thought was the words I was uttering, "I am thinking of nothing." I can't recall now if for that minute I felt good or bad, because how can one truly recall blankness, or associate with it clearly? Judging by my excited speech, I ( Read more... )

I could sell you tomorrow, so bring me back my girl

Or do you want me to explode on you so you'll have a reason to feel wronged and unhappy without the guilt of knowing you're an alienating, self-righteous, and very blind individual ( Read more... )