Alcohol just makes me sad and depressed....but then again, I usually am a bit depressed when I drink it to begin with.....went to dinner at the neighbor's house....just a chance to gossip with the neighbors, laugh a bit, and talk.....it's always fun to do, but I feel like I'm always the first one who wants to bolt out of there....I get so weary ( Read more... )

Man oh man...what a weekend...went to Disneyland...had a fabulous time....I'm very thankful to Steve for taking me to Disney....I never would have had as good of a time without him playing host....He was such a pro at navigating the rides, the lines and scheduling our days....it was truly fantastic.....having never been to Disneyland before it was ( Read more... )

so.....I guess all is still going okay with the lusty boy...thank goodness...I was having a few down days there, but alls better now....so stupid that I get all wrapped up in this stupid guy thing....he came by tonight (first time at my place), and we had one of the most conversational evenings ever...which is good....that was one of the things ( Read more... )

I am so freaking giddy -- trying to maintain the coolness factor.....had a fabulous date with a very hot man -- definitely the best one I've had since the breakup -- in that it feels more real than any of the others -- the married guy was a hottie, but ....that wasn't very real (ironically, he emailed me today -- his marriage must be really fucked ( Read more... )

Just when I think I'm all happy for good....I get all sad....so frustrating....I should be happy....I just put on the pants that my roommie had gotten for me at the flea market -- they are those that have the zip off legs -- ordinarily a geek sort of a thing, but when camping I would have killed to be able to fit in them...and...well, I fit in them ( Read more... )

So....I'm here again....just returned from a camping trip where I ate nothing but macrobiotic food for ten days, and it made me feel GREAT! the feeling was so wonderful, that I've continued that pattern of eating, and am currently doing a fast/cleanse kind of a thing.....it's really hard, though, cause this weekend is my birthday....I forgot that ( Read more... )

Man, that meme is too funny...okay...time to babble...nothing else I'm capable of doing after the drunken rediculous night I had....too drunk to sleep, too much of a sinus headache to deal...gotta get some sleep 'cause I'm going out of town tomorrow! too rediculous for words.....went up to see my friend's new stained glass shop -- kinda small but ( Read more... )

What a whacked out week it has been ....I'm still reeling....so jacked up, I don't know what wind I'm on.....I can feel myself getting sick....finally finished the DVD today...such a great project, great subject, and I'm overall pretty happy with it -- fighting off those evil monsters that don't allow me to accept complements. For a first project, ( Read more... )

And so the universe is speaking to me again....not sure what it is all trying to tell me, but.....I'm thinking I'm on the right path.....it's all so up and down these days, but the up days are more often than the down days, and my attachment to the ex is growing weaker by the day.....that's a good thing....I had the strength to bail on our plans ( Read more... )