I haven't toked in about 3 months, and my anxiety attacks are worsening. I feel like shit and liberating myself. fuuuuuck..... I want seeeeeeeexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...xoxoxoxoxoxo.

so after my last entry, Johnny and I went to go eat... he kept on talking about how burritos were fattening, I lost my appetite, and he lost my friendship. He kept on asking about marc, it got annoying ( as much as I do like talking about him ;)) I saw keven clebanoff, he was wearing a green shirt that matched his eyes... he's gotten better looking ( Read more... )

so I'm in the computer lab with johnny, he's nice, he let me use his card to print out my work because i didn't have money, and we worked on our papers together. I'm finished now, and I'm waiting for him... I don't understand him. He was totally hitting on me, and then, out of the blue, he asks "you have been gaining weight, huh?" who does that ( Read more... )

This stinks. I wouldn't go out with these guys even if I was single. Yuck, I hate good looking guys who are dicks =P it just makes them into, ugly, ugly people. Fuck you icky boys.

It's been getting harder and harder to cope. I went through mania for the past week, and I rarely slept, but now depression is hitting, and it's hitting hard. I'm ( Read more... )

I am so happy
I love food, and internet. I'm excited... kevin lam and I are finally hanging out today... it's been almost 2 months =( .... man, good ol' days. Nikki, when are we going to make those damn cookies? we have to, we have to!!!! call me up k? love ya!!!

ew she slept with him thinking that it would fuck things up between us, too bad I didn't have feelings for him... How does it feel losing the one guy you ever cared about and fucking up 2 of your closest friendships, just so that you could see me fall? It must just fucking suck, doesn't it? I mean, since it didn't work and all. Now I'm his new ( Read more... )

I'm glad allison found a guy that doesn't make her feel like junk by talking about me, and complimenting me in front of her. ♥ her happiness means the world to me I'm glad that the shitty people in my life are dropped, and I don't need to deal with unnecessary drama anymore. I've been strong, and I come before anything else. Though... the love I ( Read more... )

once you start a lie, the lie never ends..unless you confess...confess.

I've never been happier in my life... everything is perfect. I wish I could tell you how much we love each other and how much he has done for me. This time around things are finally good, really good. I'm so freaking great, and he's sooooo amazing. 50/50 companionship, mature, good, relationship. He's a nurse, he's smart... has everything I could ( Read more... )

Marc Mindo - he's new, and he's special.


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