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manda, jesss, richie, tys, kyle, vic, sheela and i went to tommy's show. it was kinda sucky but oh well. then we fit, josh, thomas, rc, me, jess, sheela and kyle in a 5 seater car along with rich, emma, ashley, tys, manda and vic in another one. we got to sheelas and just kinda hung out. vic left. then we went to tysons coz we were gonna smoke. i was kinda nervous (i've never smoked before) so i just watched them. manda and tys got some drinky drinks and i joined in on some of their party. then richie and i went in tysons room and umm yah ( i love him sooo much. he is such a piece of art. god i love him ). then we were sitting outside for a bit and nick came over. manda was pretty gone and it was so funny. she asked me to go on the swings with her and i did and we were like "oh god it smells like shit" and she was like "i don't smell anything" and 5 seconds later she'd be like "guys it smells like shit." then we went back to sheelas and the boys went to tysons. it was a funny night. i enjoyed it. i held manda's hair back while she puked. it was funny. i felt so loved and wanted. it's cool that i feel that way when people are drunk. but wahtever i liked it and so did she. it was a funny night. laughing is fun. when i was holding manda's hair back i just felt right. it seems like since summer everyone i know is changing in all these crazy ways and i felt so young still and inexperienced and i remember when i was younger i always thought i would be holding my friends hair back whil they puked and i don't know it just felt right, like it was a passing of some sort or something crazy like that. you all probably think i'm crazy coz i was really just watching her puke and grabbing her hair so she didn't puke on it but whatever. i liked it damnit! it's weird but i also felt like manda and i got a lot closer. i flet wanted when manda was like come stay in the room with me i feel weird being in there alone. i know i'm crazy and this really mostly only happened coz she was drunk but hey it was cool. i know she's been pissed off at everyone lately and that includes me so i guess it was just good to hear that she loved me and i'm her best friend. <333 te amo manda!

today we are going to hillcrest to see a movie. i've never been to the movies there. i'm looking forward to it.

this weekend has been a good one.