I think something is wrong with me. I can't sleep at night and I can't stay awake during the day. I'm not terribly good at living. Or something. Don't worry; I am certainly not suicidal. Just having a bout of severe misanthropy ( Read more... )

If only two people would listen more and talk less I wouldn't want to kill them. I am very tired. Very damn tired. Seven hour rehearsals of a very demanding Sondheim musical, an irksome director who dared lay his hands on me, five flaming queens who won't shut up during rehearsal, and my old music teacher all put together are enough to kill me. I ( Read more... )

ANGER ( Read more... )

I feel a need to have a more mysterious life. This means either becoming a priest or being even more eccentric than I am already, which would be hard. Were I any more eccentric, I'd probably implode leaving behind a black hole that sucks in pastries ( Read more... )

Okay, so the musical isn't as bad as I thought it would be. I like the kids I'm working with. I'm getting respect, and I have authoritäh. Weird. It feels really weird to have former teachers talk to you like colleagues. I even said 'shit' about seven times in front of lovely Linda, and she didn't even try to charge me a dollar. How cool is that? It ( Read more... )

Goddamn shit ass motherfucker piece of crap twateater stupid fucking pervert little bitch. I hate Sondheim. I hate Sondheim's songs, I hate his piano parts, I hate his subject matter, and I hate Sondheim. And I have to play a whole fuckload of it and have it perfect in about 12 days. I've had the score for about 6 days. This is not enough time to ( Read more... )

"I'll be your mirror ( Read more... )

今日はWindowsXPの日本語IMEを見つけたよ。　これから日本語で書けるよ ( Read more... )

Today was so lovely. Even though I worked all day at my old high school playing music and talking with old people like I give a shit. Oh, and about every half hour someone would try to send me back to class. The delightful part was when I told the front office to kiss my ass. (They tried to detain me because I was not associated with a teacher... ( Read more... )

I have a lot of dignity. I think this is rare these days. I don't know many people who do. Perhaps three or four. It doesn't mean stuffiness. To me it means behaving in such a way as not to compromise your own integrity and self image. That, however, calls for a definition of the term 'integrity', which may well be hopeless as no one seems to have ( Read more... )