When did being content become so unbelievably boring?

I feel like I'm on my way to achieving something close to a secure and happy life, but the closer I get to it, the more listless I become and the more I try to sabotage it.

Because disaster and drama and absolute discontent are so much more Romantic, you know?

do you know what it's like to sit in a vineyard at 3 in the morning and drink wine and eat grapes off the trees and wonder what its like to kiss the girl sitting on one side of you and how it might feel to run your fingers down the chest of the boy sitting on the other side and smile so hard your jaw aches and speak in a language that's borrowed ( Read more... )

I am burnt out ( Read more... )

we road north on our bicycles, side by side, dodging pedestrians, singing our favorite songs with terrible shaky voices

i steal other peoples dreams and make them my own
i put them in a pot and melt them down until i can mold them into the backs of my knees and the crooks of my arms for safe keeping
and then they just sit there and wait because i don't know what to do with them now that they're mine

writing produces writing produces writing produces writing produces writing produces writing

complex convex sentences for hand shaking and wrist wringing and smiles and winks and good long stares into our endless everythings

I'm not usually in the business of forcing music on people

however,

you have got to hear this guy.

http://www.myspace.com/findlovenow

listen to "Maybe You Are"

it will change your day.

I want to know what it feels like to have his face within an inch of my own.

It's a shame I can't just decide the course of my future in an instant.
Or I can't anymore anyway.

It used to be that I didn't have a future I cared so much about.

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Don't you? Don't you don't you ( Read more... )

I'm developing kind of a moon face...
and a crush on a 19 year old.

how SILLY!