you know the time of highschool when everyone starts to change and nobody is who they used to be.

thats about where i am.

i want him so bad,
i crave him,
i look at him and
he smiles and i
think i might be
able to have feelings
for him that i havent
had for anyone in a
long time.

sorry im not a size 2, or even genrally pretty.
but i promise ive got more to offer than any girl you'll ever meet.
and i mean that. i just want a chance..

but do i really want him?
i dont even know why i like him.
i really dont.

so im reading the book "the lovely bones". i'm not finished yet, but its a very good book so far. it makes me think of death alot, not actually death, but the perspective of it all if that even makes sense. like how one death affects a whole community. how crazy is that? but then again i see how the news portrays death like a blow off. "12 people ( Read more... )

please confirm you're human.

free loving, peace wishing, anti-war, pot smoking, long haired, non-showering, acid tripping, skirt wearing, sleeping in the grass, peace corp joining, hippie. those are the best kind right?

ogts (ohio graduation test) can blow me.

erica can blow me. (im very upset!)

this whole week can blow me.

oh and my birthday, the ones that in 2 days, yeah it can blow me too.

and why the fuck am i so cold today?!

a friend of mine was raped, or at least, pressured into having sex. by a guy who shed never met before, and hes from myspace. 21 years of age. no condom. they arent talking. what do you do in a situation like this?

no i didnt die, and im sorry i've neglected you livejournal.

somewhere i read that people are meantally healthier when the keep a journal of some sort. i wonder if that holds true for me because i have a xanga, and a livejournal, but rarely update either. i feel like a different person sometimes on livejournal. i dont know why really.

because the t. ( Read more... )

mentally exausted//tired//stinky breath.
EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS.

i love how school manages to like, take over my life. and my schedule next semester blows, and i wish i could get it all changed up, but no. my guidance councelor won't let me. DAMNIT =(

can you imagine sleeping for 2 hours through your alarm clock?
me either...but apparently thats what i did, because i kept getting
woke up last night. some bitch called my cell phone like 12 times.
god people are so ignorant..like do you seriously have ANYTHING
better to do?! evedintly not, LOOZAHZ! oh and with that said...

i hope texas smashes USC ( Read more... )

my brother got a bass for christmas, my ears are bleeding, i've never heard a shittier version of "schizum" by tool or "smoke on water" by deep purple...

bombing for peace
  is like fucking for virginity

( new shirt and purse.. pretty stoked )