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[suraido]

All day I've had this strange tightness in my chest, this pit in my stomach, with a voice in the back of my mind telling me something's just not right. That Brandon's upset, or stopped caring about me, or has had some awful revelation about usI've no reason to feel or think this way--nothing's happened between us, the last time I saw him we were

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[buttercup0186]

I'm sorry, Jillian, it must be hard...but even if Aaron says this now, doesn't that mean he's too late? Didn't you, personally, decide that you wanted Brandon as a boyfriend? when you told him about making out with those other guys, you felt guilty towards him, right? I thought that that was what you said, and I'm sorry if I remember incorrectly. Does Aaron even still hold any meaning to you other than the "fuck-buddy" status? Like, would you still consider him to be a friend of yours? Also, since there's just a couple of months before summer, does Aaron live in Evansville? I remember you having a hard time with the long distance thing. This could be a hard decision...if you wanted to choose between Aaron and Brandon...or if you just don't want to do that and stick with Brandon, you need to put any "what-ifs?" in their place...well, I dunno what else to say besides good luck with this, and I'm sorry it came up as something you might have to do along with catching up in classes and everything else. I'm sorry for giving advice, if you

[suraido]

No, darling, you're really great with advice...those are all true.
It's just so complicated--and Aaron did mean something...we were friends, it's how we got together...it was just a tricky situation...like everything these days...argh.

I think I do care much more about Brandon, though...it's just frustrating that he tells me this now, why not two months ago?
Why anything...

[buttercup0186]

well, looking at it optimistically, if Aaron had said that two months ago, would you have had this with Brandon now? If you do care about Brandon more, then I'd say that's a good thing...by the way, will Aaron still be your friend, even without doing things? Like, has he stopped bugging you about it? If he has, thqat makes him a true friend, and you'd be lucky to be able to keep a friend like that. As for tricky situations...well unfortuantely, that's just life, and I'm sorry that you've had to experience that part of it. Oh, and the "why anthing?" sounds too much like a disguised "what if?" You should probably try to get rid of those, right? ^_~ well, I get to return to my studying for exams *sigh*...hope it gets better ^_^ *hugz*