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[sureburt]

A friend commanded that I write in my journal, even if nobody comments. The community vibe of livejournal has really faded away, but I was always writing for myself anyway. Then again, I wouldn't mind if he read and let me know he still cares.

Life is full. Extraordinarily so. I'm perpetually planning ahead to make sure I can fit it all in, though I

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[sureburt]

likewise. i can never quite translate my thoughts into words, so i tend not to write anything at all. but that's not to say that i don't read and think and care.

i'm about two weeks behind in entries... i should probably get myself up to date.

[ate86]

We are the dependent variables of livejournal. We're here...buzz or no buzz.

I miss you...even if im not allowed to tell you that.

[sureburt]

i miss you too... i haven't even been on aim in more than a week to check away messages. it's amazing how much information one can glean from them!

why aren't you allowed to tell me that?

[ate86]

Im so over aim. I stay invisible consistently, with three quarters of the people on my buddy list blocked anyway.

Eh...Im just not.

Clearly you have no time, but drop me a line via e-mail sometime if the mood strikes you and all over conditions allow for it :)

[ate86]

sorry...that was me.

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[anonymous]

It's hard for me to think of anything much to say about any one of your updates, beyond "Wow--what an interesting life! --I. Stalker."

For me, and probably a number of other readers, the fascination is in the arc of your story; the cycle of amazing new chapter-->great challenge-->end-of-term near disaster-->triumph-->amazing new chapter, and the whole human development through boyfriends, leadership, and layer upon layer of coming out. When you read these journals, years from now, I suspect you'll see how amazing they are. Right now, they may be a little too much like water to a fish or air to a bird to seem that worthwhile, especially when nobody comments.

Your close community may or may not still vibrate on LJ, but I suspect I'm not the only avid reader who doesn't comment much because of the many distances between us. Thanks for continuing to write.

--Paul (lately Houston, soon Seattle again)

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[sureburt]

that's really sweet. you're right in that i can't see the forest through the trees... but maybe i'll gain some perspective a few years down the road (when i'm writing my memoirs?!). take care. :)

[kylemazoo]

i like your journal, i dont comment because im a poop face who doesnt ever update even though im on lj every day. but i like reading about your life. miss you ;-)

[sureburt]

c'mon poop face, get in on the action. i want to know how your summer has been in an easily readable text format that i can secretly access while at work... :P i miss you too.

[aestheteclectic]

I am terrible at all things internet lately. But I do read when you and about four other people update.

But it so happens that when one gets busy or starts really getting immersed in life, things like the internet can't be bothered with. So lack of updating would mean a good thing, no?

I know you're having quite the experience in New York. Post pictures sometime!

[sureburt]

totally. i tend to update when shit hits the fan... but don't we all? i want to remember the good times too, dammit. i'm going to do a real update soon. :)