it's like mans best party only happens when he dies

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i haven't posted in months, i haven't been able to, life is plain and my thoughts are too deep to run wild on the internet.

haylee jessie estella nadeau♥
august 27th, you changed my life forever♥
it all comes to easy, everything to do with you. your my heart, forever.

it all makes me wonder, what would he of looked like? i don't know if it hurts

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I'm really glad you're doing a 180 in your life. You're going to be an amazing mother, Haylee is going to be a wonderful person because of you. I don't think she'll ever know how blessed she is to have you in her life, especially as a mom. I have complete faith that you will be a pro at it, and I haven't seen you in months. I just know, because I mean, c'mon, you've been by my side at hard times and I know that those instincts you have for being a motherly friend will work out perfect and will grow with Haylee around. I'm so proud of you, I'm so happy for you

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I feel like I've caused so much shit and heartbreak in your life. If it wasn't for me, you'd never know Dave, you'd never feel the hurt the two of us caused you. I'm such a shitty friend, and if anything, I'm the lucky one to have you.

It's not that I don't think I've accomplished anything, I just look at the people I look up to and take inspiration from, and in comparison, they were such amazing people who changed the world.'

I'm still really, really upset over my uncle, and I haven't felt like 'socializing' at all. I break down a lot, and I kind of just don't want to leave the basement. But we'll hang out very soon, and don't worry, because we have our whole lives to make memories :)

PS- The part about leaving everyone behind, not directed at you. More at shitheads who've done a good part in fucking my life up.

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Hey, now it's my turn to say "DON'T MENTION HIM" :) You were right - at one point, I needed him. I was at that stage in my life. And you know, I am so strong because of what happened then. Honestly, I thank you for that. He gave me something to build off of, and yeah there were a lot of fucked up times, a lot of heart break and a lot of lies, but look ... we are both still alive. He lives his life, I live mine, and yes, sometimes I think to myself "I really want him back in my life", but then I start thinking about the consequences. You and I had a rough patch all the time when he was around. And in the end, he was the one who royally screwed me over and you were the one who came to my work, stood outside in the cold and had a cigerette with me as I cursed into the wind and cried. So in the end, it doesn't matter what happened. What matters is that we survived. And I still have you

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I love you Danyel.

And I hope someone farts on Dave's pillow.