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new layouts are love♥
i reallyyyyyyy want this shirt like you dont even know. i heart urban outfitters.
this is one of the poem-ish things i wrote last year when i was ohsohappy.
its kinda long, so you dont have to read it. i just felt like it was okay to post it.
i'll probably feel really dumb after i post this but whatever.
she sat alone, staring blankly out her window, it's been too long. she needed to see him smile, she longed for his touch.. his smell.. his body. she trembled as she thought back to the last time they touched. tears, slowly at first, start sliding gently down her cheeks. she couldn't fight it any longer. this feeling she had kept tucked away, wishing it would never surface again. but this was just too much. the tears fell harder now.. and she couldn't see clearly. it was so hard.. knowing that she would be so close to him, and not be able to have him. she had only known him a short time but that didn't seem to matter because of the way he made her feel.. like she wasn't invisible, that she was more than nothing. the tears consumed her, with these arising emotions that she had forgotten. for over a year she had longed for the day she could see him, touch him, feel his presence.. and as quickly as it could have happened, it was gone. the possibility became impossible and her hopes came crashing down, harder than expected. "how could this happen? how can i be so close and so far at the same time?" she wondered aloud, to no one in particular, as she wrapped herself in her own arms, and sobbed.. with no one to comfort her. she wished she could express to him the way he made her feel, but she was afraid. afraid that he wouldn't return the same feelings, afraid of rejection. she wiped her eyes on her sleeve and looked back out the window. the only comforting thought she could conceive was that he was looking up at the very same sky. she ached for him. "this cant be healthy" she thought. and as she began crying furiously again she realized that he couldn't have been feeling this way aswell. she never felt so alone. she was lost. lost in her own thoughts, her tears, her pain.. and mostly, lost in him.
i wrote this on the plane ride to california.