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who will you be with saturday night?
kyle and roman.
what woke you up this morning?
my alarm.
if you took a drug test would you pass it?
nope.
is tomorrow going to be a good night?
likely.
did you kiss or hug anyone today?
yep.
who was the last person you rode in a car with?
kyle.
how many myspace accounts do you have?
none.
what was your first thought this morning?
"where's my phone?"
do or did you like school?
it was fine enough. i didnt hate it.
where would you like to live?
In a house. < same fam.
do long distance relationships work?
i cant deny that there are people that make it work.
what do you want to be when you grow up?
i intend to return to school to become a childrens advocate.
where do you see yourself in 5 years?
being a childrens advocate case worker.
who do you wish you were with right now?
i am with who i want to be with.
if you had one whole day to yourself, what would you do?
i do what i want to do every day. if i was alone, i would do what i do anyway.
is anything bothering you?
eh sure. im doing this to redirect my thoughts and put that energy elsewhere.
do you miss someone?
no.
what do you want to do right now?
i like the idea of smoking a blunt but after having had strong weed all weekend, im still feeling the break.
are you listening to music right now?
nope, watching AEW.
are you in a good mood?
i was angry. it was temporary. im feeling good overall.
what are you doing this weekend?
weekend means family time, so likely just chilling at home, maybe getting to the park.
are you talking to anyone while doing this?
kyle and i are intermittently speaking. not at this present moment, however.
when were you the saddest in your life?
good question. i havent felt sad like i used to feel in the last three years.
do you own more than one cell phone?
no.
do you use ebay to buy or sell?
nope. used to buy tho.
have you ever had a song written about you?
not that i know of.
have you ever sang in public?
ha no.
what do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
i dont listen to music before i go to bed.
do you have a job?
yes.
what does your ipod have in it right now?
no ipod.
have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
sure.
next concert?
i didnt like concerts before covid, i still dont like concerts, so regardless of current events, my next concert would still be nothing.
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1. what does your best friend’s bedroom look like?
he lives in a studio apartment that is extremely tidy and modern hobo chic. hes trendy.
2. do you think bald guys are attractive?
speaking of bald lol, my bff is bald, and so is kyle. it depends on the individual.
3. if you don’t recognize the number of who’s calling, do you answer anyway?
i dont answer the phone unless i have the number in my phone.
4. do you ever suspect that people who make your food are going to poison it?
no.
5. do you find a lot of people that have the same birthday as you?
no.
6. have you ever said ‘silence! i keel you’ to anyone?
yes lol!
7. when’s the last time you wore an oxygen mask?
never.
8. what’s the most amount of money you have/will paid/pay for sunglasses?
the only sunglasses ive ever purchased myself was clipons that came with my frames, which as a package deal was $65.
9. if you don’t like something, do you make sure everyone knows?
no hahaha. i dont need attention like that.
10. do you appreciate simplicity?
yes.
11. do you have any notes saved on your phone?
yes.
12. when was the last time you went to the skating rink?
ha a long time.
13. how do you pronounce route?
Both depending on the sentence lol < agreed.
14. i accidentally ate the whole thing! what should i do?
...
15. do you often tell people to calm down, or are you the one being told to calm down?
i dont waste my energy trying to calm belligerent fools, and i can calm myself down just fine.
16. when’s the last time you played barbies?
at least 22 years.
17. if you had a job where you had to wear scrubs, what color would you want to wear?
oh i dont care. ill wear any of them.
18. do you hear more airplanes or trains go by your house?
planes, i live less than a mile from a road called Airport Highway, on which is a local airport lol.
19. would you be okay with owning a two door car?
sure, why not.
20. what’s the last thing you looked at under a microscope?
good question.
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do you enjoy late night television?:
i dont really watch TV. id rather play video games.
on those universal technical institute (uti) commercials, does it make you think of urinary tract infections?:
i dont get the reference, but yes, the initials UTI make me immediately think of infections.
do you remember the show the proud family on disney? did you like it?:
yes and no.
do you find daniel tosh funny?:
i used to when his show first debuted.
are there any paintings in your house?:
nope.
what internet service provider do you have?:
buckeye.
when was the last time you had your favorite drink?:
earlier today.
do you ever hear of something disgusting that you haven’t seen, so you go and look it up?:
yes.
when was the last time you clipped your nails?:
less than a week ago.
when was the last time you took a pet to the vet?:
actually, itll be a week tomorrow. sydney had the poops. :(
did you ever play any computer games when you were little?:
i still play "computer games," gtfoh lol.
does your mom use a bulletin board?:
no, but i do.
what is the last type of lip gloss you used?:
i dont wear anything on my lips.
have you ever tried to talk to someone and they so obviously just ignored you?:
yep. i stopped wasting time on people who arent interested in hearing me long ago.
would you eat the big mac wrap at mcdonald’s?:
no.
do you enjoy going to the dentist?:
i dont mind.
does your mom crochet blankets?:
no. her sister does tho.
do you find jewel attractive?:
jewel? like the singer? sure.
do you mind reading old magazines?:
if theres nothing else i guess i dont mind.
does your dentist let you pick out what color of toothbrush you want?:
when i was a kid and that was a big deal, yes.
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Be honest with yourself, are you proud of your actions?
yes.
Have you ever had an operation?
no.
Favorite sit-down restaurant?
kengo sushi. <3
What have you eaten today?
grilled cheese and tomato soup, pizza and bread sticks.
Who has made you laugh the hardest in the last week?
kyle 100%!
If you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be?
if it saved my life, i dont know that i would really care.
What is something you find romantic?
kyle sharing with me verbal affirmations of his love for me.
What is your style?
hahaha! comfortable. fuck style, fuck fashion.
If you could be doing anything you like right now, what would it be?
i am doing what i want to be doing right now.
What is the best movie you have ever seen?
that is a good question bro.
What makes you attracted to the person you like right now?
hes smart, funny, deep, and willing to face himself. he is wonderful.
What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about?
i think this depends more on context and company as opposed to a subject that cannot be joked about. its personal for everyone.
How long was your longest relationship?
i am in it right now. going on 3 years this october.
Why did your last relationship end?
he only cared about getting his needs met. he would directly tell me that i needed to meet his needs then he would be able to facilitate mine. that is not how equality works.
Would you rather live in a castle or a spaceship?
spaceship. bye, earth, and all you shitbag humans.
Have you ever felt unimportant in someone’s life?
for sure. never again.
Has someone ever made you a Build-A-Bear?
nope.
Did you have any unread texts this morning?
nope.
What are your initials?
kag.
What is your definition of “having sex”?
some physically intimate activity involving kyle's penis entering my vagina.
Who was the last person you were “in a relationship with” on Facebook (including anyone you may have put “in a relationship with” for a joke)?
kyle, currently.
Do you think a relationship with a 16-year-old girl and a 35-year-old man would work out? Do you think age differences like that (when they’re under 18) should be legal?
that is disgusting to even be asked.
Were you ever “the other man/woman”? How did it turn out? How do you feel about it today?
i was. when i found out, i got a hold of the actual woman, and i blew the whistle. she forgot about him and moved on, had a hard time for a while but got herself in a better place. same for me.
What do you think of open relationships? If your partner suggested it, what would you say?
i dont care what other people do, but that is not for me. as a matter of fact, i think humans as a creature are not monogamous. i recognize i need the singular loyalty emotionally because of the damage done to me by other people.
Would you ever date out of your race?
i have before.
Who were you with yesterday?
kyle.
Have you ever had a reptile for a pet?
nope.
What time do you have to get up tomorrow?
8am.
Have you ever kissed anyone with a tattoo?
i kiss someone with tattoos every day.
How long have you been with your boyfriend/girlfriend?
almost 3 years.
What kinds of alcohol do you like?
whiskey and wine, if i find myself in the mood, but thats rare af.
Did you have a swing set when you were a kid?
yes.
Can you do the alphabet in sign language?
nope.
Is the person you last kissed yours?
he is as much mine as i am his. take that how you will.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
am doing that.
Have you ever been so hurt that you wanted to stop feeling completely?
yeah.
State you most want to visit?
washington, for the redwoods.
What is a book that you really want to read?
i need to finish Sapiens by Yuval Noah Harari.
What brand was the last lotion that you used?
kroger's banana boat knock off.
What color is your underwear?
white.
What was the last type of cookie that you ate?
hard to say.
If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
right here.
What genre was the last song you listened to?
rap?
What sort of surveys catch your interest and which ones bore you?
i like question surveys like these. i dislike bolding, i wont do them.
What books do you usually enjoy reading and which do you not enjoy?
i used to like fantasy and fiction but i dont think thats my bag anymore. currently im reading sapiens as discussed before, as well as Mothers Who Kill Their Children by Cheryl Meyer.
What is something that you really want to try, whether it’s a hobby, food, etc.?
i want to try a lot of things. id love to take up a martial art but that requires i put myself around other gross people.
What websites do you frequent most often?
i dont really. i use the reddit app most.
The last person you found attractive - what did they look like?
bald with a short red beard, tired blue eyes, and cut biceps <3
If you could go back in time, would you prefer to go forward or backward?
this question is so jacked LOL. "if you could go back, would you go foward?" go away.
Post a link to the last video you watched online.
LOL
Is there anything bothering you at the moment?
nothing specific.
What color was the last shirt you wore?
it is blue.
What sort of things do you like to post or look at on Tumblr?
i dont use tumblr.
What scent was the last candle you burned?
i burn incense.
What type of people are you usually attracted to?
emotional vulnerability.
Do you collect anything? If so, what?
i dont.
When you look to your left, what is the first thing you see? What about the right?
the left, the dog crate. the right, the other table.
What room are you currently in? What color are the walls/floor?
dining room. walls are greige, floors are hardwood.
What color is the last blanket you used?
tan and red.
What do you smell like right now?
nothing. just house smell.
If it was possible to celebrate a holiday everyday, which would you choose?
no.
If you could compare yourself to a celebrity or character, who would it be?
daria.
Which male celebrities do you find attractive?
im never good at thinking up attractive people. kenny omega.
Which female celebrities do you find attractive?
zelda
If you could marry one of your favorite celebrities and have a happy relationship until the end of your days, who would it be?
no.
What song are you listening to at the moment?
im not.
What is currently on your desk?
i am not at a desk. i am at the dinner table.
What brand is your computer?
asus.
What are the last things you ate and drank?
i just had a freeze pop. one could argue that counts as both.
How often do you take naps and how long do they usually last?
i dont take naps often. they vary in duration.
Which season do you wish lasted all year?
none.
What is the last part of your body that itched?
idk.
Is there anything that you should be doing right now?
nope.
Is there anything you’re craving right now?
everything edible.
Do you prefer regular or flavored coffee? What about regular or flavored creamer?
regular coffee, flavored creamer.
How do you take your tea?
sweet cold, flavored and sweet hot.
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Who’s one person who changed how you viewed something?
kyle, over and over again.
At what age do you feel like you grew up mentally/emotionally?
not sure specifically when i felt like i hit an apex, but i hope i continue to grow mentally and emotionally. i hope its an endless mountain and not an unfortunate plateau.
Do you have any brothers?
yes.
Are you currently happy?
yes.
Who did you talk on the phone with last night?
no one.
Is anything bugging you right now?
not really.
Who is the last person you missed a call from?
unknown numbers.
What annoys you most in a person?
bigotry. wilfull ignorance. misplaced arrogance, especially when masked as confidence.
Have you changed this year?
yes.
What are you listening to right now?
AEW.
Are you talking to anyone tonight?
yeah.
Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
i get nervous before everything. GAD.
Whose bed did you sleep in last that wasn’t yours?
roman's, cause i needed a nap in a room with four walls lol (our bedroom is a loft).
Are you a really understanding person?
i am always trying to be.
How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
9?
How many pillows do you like to sleep with?
one.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
a few times to toss and turn.
How are you feeling lately?
good!
How do you wear your hair most of the time?
up in a messy bun.
Think back to the end of last school year, who did you have feelings for?
ill assume last year of high school for the sake of continuity: i had feelings for the dude i was dating at the time.
In a relationship, do you think about the future, or now?
its important to establish goals for the future and focus on now to grow the relationship towards those goals. so both.
Think back to the last person you kissed, did that person ever give you a piggy back ride?
you know what, i dont think he ever has.
Did you see your best friend today?
no. i mean, kyle is a best friend of mine, but thats not his only role.
Are you dating the last person you talked to?
yes.
Are you close to your father?
no.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
so ive heard.
Where did you go today?
i drove us to little caesars to get dinner.
Where are you located right now?
dining room.
What’s between you and the last person you texted?
the state of indiana.
Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?
i could.
What was the last piece of furniture you purchased?
good question.
Have you ever broken up with someone for a reason other than lack of feelings (ex. moving away, etc.)?
yeah.
Has anyone ever told you that you are too picky when it comes to the people you date? What about not picky enough?
no and no.
When was the last time you went to a bar?
good question.
What three things would you change about your life?
live in a house, make more money, work out more.
Was there anything unusual or unique about your birth?
4th anniversary of my grandpa's death.
What has happened in the past week that is worth remembering in five years?
kyle starting therapy and off to a successful start!
How much of your day did you spend completely alone?
none of it, but coexisting with kyle is the best of both worlds.
What was the best conversation you’ve had recently?
kyle and i have great conversations almost every day. i could name several from today alone.
What is the next book you are going to read?
i am going to finish Sapiens and Mothers That Kill Their Children, perhaps simultaneously.
Describe the hardest decision you have ever made.
to abort or not to abort, that was the question. spoiler alert: i aborted, and i do not regret that decision.
Why did you last see the doctor?
physical therapy was my last appointment. anxiety is a bitch!
Post a recent picture of yourself.
no.
How do you spend the majority of your free time?
playing video games, conversing with kyle, playing with the kitten, reading, browsing reddit.
What do you want to accomplish tomorrow?
i want to get through my work day and thats about it.
List the cards in your wallet.
there is a lot, so no lol.
What was the last thing to inspire you?
the hatred i feel for banal office existence motivates me to work harder to achieve my goals so i can escape office life.
Who was the last person to do something nice for you?
kyle.
What was the lowest point of this year? The highest?
having to spend all of our stimulus money on a lawyer to sue roman's mom for custody due to her actions fucking sucked, cause we wanted to buy a house with that. the highest is all of that coming to a close and everyone is better off than they were before.
Is there any artwork in the room you’re in?
arguably art, sure.
What is your number one short-term goal? Long-term?
short term, be more physically active and do my stretches to prevent body pains. long term, get back in school for social work.
Are you dealing with anything difficult at the moment?
thankfully, not really. i am grateful.