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im home now.
i was suppose to stay at hogwarts but i didnt really want to anymore.
i dont really know what to say here. i guess im not really having a happy christmas so far. i dont really feel bad anymore. i guess i just feel numb if you can even feel that. when i got home mum wanted to know what was wrong so i told her everything, and she let me put my head in her lap and cry for a while and then she made me hot cocoa. i really wish i could stay at home until next year. i love hogwarts but i guess i didnt realise how much i missed my mum. im really glad i came home. its nice having my bed and my room and stuff. and i have my grandma's old quilt here on my bed that i forgot to take with me to hogwarts this year and im really glad i have that. i know i never met my grandma before she and my grandfather died... and i guess its just nice to have something of hers and it always made me feel better when i was little. its not working so much now. i wish my dad was here. i dont even remember what he looks like anymore and we dont have any pictures.
i just feel really stupid.
i think id really like to play quidditch right now but theres lots of snow here. mum said its really pretty and that we could go build a snowman so i guess im going to do that later. we have a pipe and an old scarf that we always put on snowmen. sometimes we make little snowmen family too but we havent done that since ... well we havent done that in awhile. mum says she found an enchanment to make the snowman sing like that muggle story too. she told me they used to always come to life when there was more magic. i think its kind of scary.
i spent a lot of time with parvati patil before we left and she was really nice but i dont know her very well.
i wish i wasnt so stupid.
mum wants me to help her with the christmas pudding now. so i guess ill do that and then maybe go play with the kneazle. happy christmas.
i was suppose to stay at hogwarts but i didnt really want to anymore.
i dont really know what to say here. i guess im not really having a happy christmas so far. i dont really feel bad anymore. i guess i just feel numb if you can even feel that. when i got home mum wanted to know what was wrong so i told her everything, and she let me put my head in her lap and cry for a while and then she made me hot cocoa. i really wish i could stay at home until next year. i love hogwarts but i guess i didnt realise how much i missed my mum. im really glad i came home. its nice having my bed and my room and stuff. and i have my grandma's old quilt here on my bed that i forgot to take with me to hogwarts this year and im really glad i have that. i know i never met my grandma before she and my grandfather died... and i guess its just nice to have something of hers and it always made me feel better when i was little. its not working so much now. i wish my dad was here. i dont even remember what he looks like anymore and we dont have any pictures.
i just feel really stupid.
i think id really like to play quidditch right now but theres lots of snow here. mum said its really pretty and that we could go build a snowman so i guess im going to do that later. we have a pipe and an old scarf that we always put on snowmen. sometimes we make little snowmen family too but we havent done that since ... well we havent done that in awhile. mum says she found an enchanment to make the snowman sing like that muggle story too. she told me they used to always come to life when there was more magic. i think its kind of scary.
i spent a lot of time with parvati patil before we left and she was really nice but i dont know her very well.
i wish i wasnt so stupid.
mum wants me to help her with the christmas pudding now. so i guess ill do that and then maybe go play with the kneazle. happy christmas.