Even with being sick, I've been in a pretty good mood. I think being able to go out with my cousin & other friends more has been what's improving my spirits. In fact, we're supposed to go go kart racing tomorrow. That should be pretty fun ( Read more... )

I've been overlooking a very good reason to admire the snow, rather than complain about it. Whilst sitting in my back porch having a smoke, my eyes were drawn to how easily tracks in the snow are made. Without the blankets of white covering the grass, I wouldn't be able to see paw prints trailing all around my yard. I wouldn't catch sight of how ( Read more... )

Sometimes you just have to sit back & take a deep breath or two {of smoke} & just let yourself relax. Eyes aren't so capable of seeing the truth when they're blurred by tears. Thoughts flow so much easier without all of the pent up sadness & aggression. Everyone can pull themselves out of that hole of depression, if they're willing to put the ( Read more... )

It's become a bit of an obsession now, but I can't say I don't like it. I can't say I want to stop it either. As bad as it is for me, it makes me look & feel better. Some may call it a false sense of confidence, but I call it a way to cope. Who says I can't change what was was given to me? Even if someone did, I doubt I'd listen. Maybe this is the ( Read more... )

I'm so beyond angry at my stupid excuse for "parents." They are seriously the lowest people I know now. I'm so tired of being treated so unfairly, so much like a child. I'm not 12 anymore, they need to realize that fact & get over it. It's almost as if I'm not even allowed to have friends anymore. Some showed up tonight & my asshole "father" kicked ( Read more... )

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"Aerodynamically, the bumble bee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumble bee doesn't know it, so it goes on flying anyway.I am the bumble bee & I will continue to fly on...unless someone comes at me with a fly swatter, of course. :P ( Read more... )

You're probably all tired of reading about me bitching, but unfortunately it's all I can do lately. It just seems that nothing likes to go right for me anymore. I just...well lately...I can't even put it into words. Nothing feels right. I'm too sad. Yes, I have my moments of happiness, but the bad outweighs the good. I just don't see the point in ( Read more... )

I was going through a box of old pictures & found a few that interested me. My mom used to be really into taking pictures, mostly of nature scenes, and a lot of them came out really nice. I wish that I could take pictures as good as her's. Maybe she'll give me some pointers. {Don't mind any redness or imperfections, I think it's from my scanner.}


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