so itz been a week sence me in steven have broken up.. and ive had time to think about it all. we still talk a lot, and honestly, itz not even awkward. i thought me and steven could never be..friendz. but really, after giving it some time to think it over, we're better friendz then we were when we were going out. honestly. we still talk on the ( Read more... )

befre i start this entry and what went on since i last updated, let me just say that cally marie sevald is my hero of the year. she saved me. completely. and truley. from my nightmare summer and freshman year, she saved my future from crumbling into peices, she saved me this weekend, she is my savior, and i love her dearly... and i dont no where i' ( Read more... )

i dont really no.. what to say. im going back to that place i swore i'd never go. slowly i no thatz where i'll end up. it's like, i can do whatever i want phisically to change my life, but in the end, i'll just end up where i wuz. thinking too much.. not having trust.. thinking only bad and aweful thoughts.. not being good enough for ne one, ever. ( Read more... )

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wooow ok so the play went pretty freaking sweet. it wuz so awesome omg i luved it. i wuz so sad when it wuz over ( Read more... )

well it's the day before opening night, and im super excited. i'm gonna miss everyone in this show, we had so much fun together. we got so close, and i really loved it so much. i hope you all come. heres the dates ( Read more... )

hmm so itz been awhile since ive written in here..much has been going on. this past week, rehersel in the CPA and at highland middle school...oh yah and i on the cover of the Milford Times. you should all look at that.. the play's been going really good. schoolz good..yah yah yah...

valentines day, me and steve didnt get eachother ne thing..cuz ( Read more... )

hmm so b/c itz been like a week.. hearz..the newz!

the play is going pretty good, gotta have my script memorized by tomorow..hopefully i'll have it down. oakland singerz still suckz with a burning passion.. we had a concert today, and omg i just hated it. some ppl had like soloz and stuff..and they sucked at em. pretty much.. all of em did. exept ( Read more... )

i don't know what motivation i had this morning waking up at 7:30 am. i think im secretly on crack. but anyways, now that i have like 4 hours to kill ( Read more... )

i'm back again. to this miserable stage again. colors are getting greyer as the moments pass. i couldnt sleep last night. it was freezing in my room. i feel so ugly. my mom even said to me i looked white as a ghost this morning. i feel so unlike me. i'm sick, heartbroken, unloved, and i don't want to do anything. i want to disapear and never come ( Read more... )