Nothing in my life is really going as planned. I'm sort of apathetic about it, but I'm glad that M is helping me get my mind off things during those instances that I don't feel quite as blasé about it
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i can relate. maybe too much. i've been getting over my weirdness and bringing down my walls, and it's worth it. and i'm really happy. and i feel super lucky to have met someone who i feel comfortable enough with and safe enough with that i don't need to be fucked up... that i don't have to be so shit-faced that i'm trying to convince myself that i'm happy or doing what i want, because i actually AM happy and it really is what i want. i get insecure and wonder if i'm doing the right things, or the wrong things, or saying too much or too little. it will take time to get over those parts, but for now i'm just saying what i feel and what comes to me as it comes. i'm trying not to hold back. ramblerambleramble.
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i've been getting over my weirdness and bringing down my walls, and it's worth it. and i'm really happy. and i feel super lucky to have met someone who i feel comfortable enough with and safe enough with that i don't need to be fucked up... that i don't have to be so shit-faced that i'm trying to convince myself that i'm happy or doing what i want, because i actually AM happy and it really is what i want. i get insecure and wonder if i'm doing the right things, or the wrong things, or saying too much or too little. it will take time to get over those parts, but for now i'm just saying what i feel and what comes to me as it comes. i'm trying not to hold back. ramblerambleramble.
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happy for yous.
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