Music meme thing, Alex, All About Us- t.A.T.u
(OOC: This is a faintly insane verse of my own creation where Juni goes back to the eighties, and I am completely unsure if I actually suceeded in writing Alex :/)
So they turn from her, she should’ve expected it really, you can’t confess that you worked for demons and may have killed a few people and get sympathy, they are just humans and although exceptional humans and ones that she respects… No, best not to go down that path, she swore that she’d never cry again after Beranabus and so she won’t, inside her heart is breaking but outside she’ll just look faintly tired, displaying her true emotions would be dangerous after all.
So she just walks back to her flat alone, feeling numb inside but not crying, she’ll never cry.
Alex is standing outside when she gets there and Juni just has to stop and stare for a moment before she can approach, wearing a faintly wry smile as she waves and slots her key into the door, she expects that Alex has arrived to yell at her (she’s from roughly the same place as Juni after all, and has family back there) or hit her, she feels like she deserves both.
“You’re very brave, I admire that” comes quietly from behind her as they step inside, so quiet that it takes a moment for Juni to catch it and another moment to process it… But then she spins around, eyes widening and mouth perhaps dropping open just a little, she’s never heard brave used around her before, it’s quite a shocking experience and one which deserves a lot of eloquence in response.
“Uh?”
“Brave” Alex repeats, smiling faintly “for telling them that, they don’t believe you but it must’ve taken a lot for you to admit that, not just the being from the future part but the demons and your role with them, not to mention that business with Beranabus, I could see that it took a lot to admit all that.”
Juni’s mind is spinning, if she was just a little weaker she’d probably be sitting down and gasping for whisky but instead she’s just going to keep standing up and maybe even throw a little shaking in, so this is what understanding feels like, weird… And they don’t believe her, something she never even thought about, that explains everything, makes her feel a lot better too “…You believe me, Alex? About the demons?”
“Not really” the other woman admits, looking just faintly uncomfortable at the admission “Stranger things have happened though, and you believed me about being from the future so I can try to believe you, even if it does sound completely improbable.”
“You don’t think I’m evil then?” Juni meant for that to come out in a commanding slightly defiant tone, instead she gets a timid sounding whisper that trembles on the edge of tears, her voice is a traitor and deserves to be shot for its betrayel, she doesn’t mean to sound like a weakling, she doesn’t need anybodies pity.
She wants it though, a secret from even herself, but she wants it so badly.
“No” Alex says without hesitation, taking her hands “bad choices don’t make a bad person, you can still redeem yourself, and admitting that you have a problem is the first step towards fixing it, I can help, we’re in this together, Juni, we can help each other together.”
Juni just stares for a second in response to that, blinking back tears… And then she leans forward and kisses Alex, feeling a shock of complete surprise when Alex kisses back just as enthusiastically, it’s kind of scary and yet extremely nice, and she feels rather safe too which is a odd sensation.
They can face it all together, two mildly insane people against the world.
Tomorrow, she thinks as her hand slides down Alex’s top, is going to be a lot better than today.
So they turn from her, she should’ve expected it really, you can’t confess that you worked for demons and may have killed a few people and get sympathy, they are just humans and although exceptional humans and ones that she respects… No, best not to go down that path, she swore that she’d never cry again after Beranabus and so she won’t, inside her heart is breaking but outside she’ll just look faintly tired, displaying her true emotions would be dangerous after all.
So she just walks back to her flat alone, feeling numb inside but not crying, she’ll never cry.
Alex is standing outside when she gets there and Juni just has to stop and stare for a moment before she can approach, wearing a faintly wry smile as she waves and slots her key into the door, she expects that Alex has arrived to yell at her (she’s from roughly the same place as Juni after all, and has family back there) or hit her, she feels like she deserves both.
“You’re very brave, I admire that” comes quietly from behind her as they step inside, so quiet that it takes a moment for Juni to catch it and another moment to process it… But then she spins around, eyes widening and mouth perhaps dropping open just a little, she’s never heard brave used around her before, it’s quite a shocking experience and one which deserves a lot of eloquence in response.
“Uh?”
“Brave” Alex repeats, smiling faintly “for telling them that, they don’t believe you but it must’ve taken a lot for you to admit that, not just the being from the future part but the demons and your role with them, not to mention that business with Beranabus, I could see that it took a lot to admit all that.”
Juni’s mind is spinning, if she was just a little weaker she’d probably be sitting down and gasping for whisky but instead she’s just going to keep standing up and maybe even throw a little shaking in, so this is what understanding feels like, weird… And they don’t believe her, something she never even thought about, that explains everything, makes her feel a lot better too “…You believe me, Alex? About the demons?”
“Not really” the other woman admits, looking just faintly uncomfortable at the admission “Stranger things have happened though, and you believed me about being from the future so I can try to believe you, even if it does sound completely improbable.”
“You don’t think I’m evil then?” Juni meant for that to come out in a commanding slightly defiant tone, instead she gets a timid sounding whisper that trembles on the edge of tears, her voice is a traitor and deserves to be shot for its betrayel, she doesn’t mean to sound like a weakling, she doesn’t need anybodies pity.
She wants it though, a secret from even herself, but she wants it so badly.
“No” Alex says without hesitation, taking her hands “bad choices don’t make a bad person, you can still redeem yourself, and admitting that you have a problem is the first step towards fixing it, I can help, we’re in this together, Juni, we can help each other together.”
Juni just stares for a second in response to that, blinking back tears… And then she leans forward and kisses Alex, feeling a shock of complete surprise when Alex kisses back just as enthusiastically, it’s kind of scary and yet extremely nice, and she feels rather safe too which is a odd sensation.
They can face it all together, two mildly insane people against the world.
Tomorrow, she thinks as her hand slides down Alex’s top, is going to be a lot better than today.