i just wrote my name about fifty different ways to make sure. is it okay that i'm not that worried about it, that i really don't care that much, that i'm not having an identity crisis about it? i am MRS. identity crisis, and, well, i'm not having an identity crisis about this. not to have an identity crisis about not-having an identity crisis. ( Read more... )

hey, 2011!  that was fast.  rapidly closing in on the day i will be married, which i never thought i'd say.  but it's been coming for a long time, and i'm doing what i want to.  we'll be married officially january 15th, then he'll be back for most of february, and we'll move to hawaii in the beginning of march.  i'll come back for gulliver.

home, ( Read more... )

you just want to curl up into the tiniest little package possible and hide in a dark place until you become dirt.

<3

family dynamics and ( Read more... )

feelin eighth grade today, which makes writing in this journal seem appropriate.

should burn myself a cd. the get up kids, hot rod circuit, hey mercedes, the anniversary, all-american quarterback, the jealous sound, armor for sleep, the starting line, matchbook romance, etc

i really wanna listen to this and go to thrifttown with somebody:

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thinking a ( Read more... )

mmmmmm last time i posted i was sad. i forget about this one. i have too many and it feels TOO good to express myself on paper, i don't know.. hand-writing. it makes up for all the times when i can't find my words ( Read more... )

i miss muggy, hot, crowded [walmart] parking lots. burning myself on the seatbelt.
(that's the one that really gets me. i did secretly enjoy the heat.)

i miss the keller carnival.

i miss getting excited about a party, going out shopping with my girlfriends, and having a victory cigarette after we'd narrowly escaped with hundreds of dollars worth of ( Read more... )

242 weeks ago.

this week has been really nostalgic--  i uncovered an old website, my childhood babysitter, my first romantic partner, childhood friends, these three-hundred some-odd entries.  (i haven't finished reading yet) it looks like i spent a lot of time gushing about boys, longing for closeness, and trying hard to bring people together.  also ( Read more... )

When did I start having vivid dreams again?

Everything's falling into pattern.

onward...

THANK YOU FAYE. ;)[The Favorite Music Meme: List your current six favorite songs, then pick six other people that have to do the same ( Read more... )

I can't write about anything anymore. I wrote in a real journal while I was in Florida. I meant to type the entries onto here but I always feel like they're stupid later.

My boyfriend reminds me of Zach Braff. I like him a lot. and I just really need some rest. <3