Epilogue: I am Atlas

[sweatybaek]

luhan-centric | pg-13 | abstract angst
an epilogue of sorts to I am Atlas (you'll have to read that one to understand this), written for exothermc :>
inspired by this.

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[exothermc]

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[exothermc]

i only can quote one thing because if i want to quote Things i would end up quoting them all

He glanced around and saw reflections of the buildings behind him in parked cars, in store windows, in puddles along the curbside, but none of them showed him a person looking back - none of them showed him himself. And he could hear the pulsing of a heart he didn't have like thunder in his ears, and he could feel the heat of blood he didn't have like a molten fire in his veins and he was Atlas, the weight of every constellation crushing him, and he was Atlas, the weight of heaven splintering his spine, and he was Atlas, the weight of the sky cracking his knees.

when i read this, i thought of what would i feel if i was luhan, and i would feel this heartwrecnging pain and fear of him being able to see himself - luhan can see himself everywhere now, of course, because he is anything but anything, he is nothing but nothing, and it just i felt deep sadness

im going to write hansoo for you

but the thing is, kyungsoo doesn't know

[sweatybaek]

i already feels'd at you on twitter about this im sure bUT AGAIN THANK YOU HUFFS ;__; <3333 /cries gently

also pls write me hansoo pls write me anything write me everything pls pLS

[teddyescher]

i also hate you how do you write such great angst

All at once his shaking hands were no longer nerveless, his arms were there, his body belonged, was his - but his flesh was crawling, like tiny insects were burrowing into his skin and climbing up through his veins like ladders, swimming through the river of his blood which had gone cold. The longer Baekhyun looked in his direction - looked through him - the further the insects got, digging into muscle and nibbling at his bone marrow, until Baekhyun looked away, reinitiating a soundless conversation, like a cartoon on mute, as though Luhan's scream had only been a whistle of the wind.

luiza i feel actual pain how do you write like this
take all of my soul istg you are so good at this jfc

also i got new hansoo dp for this fic just for u to go with the rest of the companion fics also because hansoo beautiful and broken and terrible

[sweatybaek]

/gives u friendly zebras and raccoon dogs and kim jongdae body pillow and byun baekhyun themed plastic dick and ass machine on vinyl/

<3