I met Karissa's grandparents today. Specifically her grandfather. Never before have I held eye contact with someone for so long. He's puerto Rican, in his 50's, and has spent his life in the north, republican, and putting up with deep southern bred racism. He kinda reminded me off an indian just off the preservation; absolutly and totally ( Read more... )

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College isnt at all what I expected and not at all what I want. The people blow my mind, even the most ecentric of which still somewhat mellow. it's strange, you would think there would be those crazy drunks or the girl whos a total whore or that guy that pushes pranks waaaay to far bu theres none of that. Everyones just mildmannered and playing ( Read more... )

nothing feels like home anymore. Not deep down inside. If only I had a loner mentality to go along with it. hush now. All the small things are being taken care of but what do they really mean? Maybe im just missing my own points, becoming my own worst critic. I can make myself my beliefs, right? Im nothing without what i stand for. ( Read more... )

I hate the idea that some people wil stop caring. I know some will because its happened before. Im sick of wondering who will leave me forever

for all the promises to mysef that i was going to write each day at college, i sure fucked that up. I want to write about everyhting thats happened in the last 10 days. I want to explain all the scenarios, tell all the stories, and introduce all the characters, but i know it would all just come out as one long train wreck. I woke up today at 7 ( Read more... )

I was scared. Absollutly scared shitless. The idea of college scared the shit out of me and i wont even try to lie about it. On the way up Karissa and I stopped to get breakfast. I felt so sick to my stomack i couldnt even finish mine. If she hadnt of calmed me down i dont know what would have. We ot here around 10:30 and there were maybe 30 ( Read more... )

Hot would be an understatement for this place

Summer is quickly leaving, along with it a consistant life at winston. Its a strange feeling, too know that all you find familiar to sddenly and quickly leave you. Ive been hearing alot lately that everyone changes in college. Everyone conforms. I honestly cant see that happening. If anything, ive been worrying that my own hard headedness will ( Read more... )

Schools out. Kinda. Im done with exams and my biggest workload currently is finding all my books to return and counting my money for summer and figuring out where to blow it and where to save. Ive realized i need a flask. Up until 17 hours ago, i was pretty sure i was not going to beachweek ( Read more... )