So we moved Ellie to assisted living today.  It is such a relief! It was a long time coming and a relief to all.

Andy is home and doing well.

Tomorrow will be my first long day since black friday weekend and I'm dreading it, especially since I close with someone I find lazy, irritating and condescending. I really hope my body will hold up.

1. What was the best thing about 2020? Staying home
2. What lessons from 2020 will you carry into 2021? we are not invincable
3. How did you spend your New Year's Eve? With my husband and mother-in-law
4. Legend says what you did at midnight on New Year's Eve/Day is what you'll do all year. So what did you do? Kissed my husband
5. What are you most looking forward ( Read more... )

I am angry. So angry I am shaking and crying. I am don't with that woman! I will no longer help her do anything! Tom now had all of that firmly on his shoulders because I am done! I will not do another good damn thing for her. He can call her doctors and movers and plumbers and any other fucking thing she needs and then drive get all over creation ( Read more... )

So migraine for 3 days seizure the days ago, then another last night and headache all day today. No bueno. I don't like feeling like this. I just want dark and silence but I have to work. It's actually the long drive with the sun in my face then the noise wherever I am. I turned Ellie's tv today and left Salsaritas while Andy was eating because I ( Read more... )

I bought a new car yesterday.
On Wednesday night I ran over something in the road and popped both driver side tires on the fusion. That was the last straw for me. Even though the bank had already turned me down for an auto loan because my credit score is only 602 if had enough of the garbage and decided to stuck it up and all Ellie for the money to ( Read more... )

So life is getting overwhelming.  My diet has gone to hell in a handbasket and I can tell I'm gaining; not much but I can tell. I know I am stress eating and depression eating.  I'm depressed about Covid-19.  I wasn't worried at the beginning but the longer it's gone on and the stupider people are being- going out without masks, not keeping a safe ( Read more... )

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I'm very angry right now. With Tom. with James. With Ellie. I don't want to be riding in this car on our way to the vet with this dog. The dog smells and is old and needs more love and care than he is getting. I am angry with Tom because I took the day off so I wouldn't have to deal with people today. So I could do stuff at the house, clean, ( Read more... )

Ugh! And yuck. I feel like hot garbage. Metaphorically and literally.
For the hot: It's hot here, summer finally beginning and hitting the mid 80's yesterday and today with just enough rain to make it muggy as hell with no relief in temperature. Probably going to have to put the storm windows back in soon and turn on the AC. Seems like as I get ( Read more... )