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[sweek]

I'm not writing any of this because I am leaving John, or because he's leaving me. I'm going to write this out because I have so much I want to express but never find the right time to actually get it out

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[jiveturky]

You've come a long way in two summers.

<3

[holzerhedrpca]

IF you're the only one who compromises, it's not called a compromise, it's called a cave-in.

We're all gonna go through rough spots. You've survived eight months with John and one break-up already. I think maybe that's a sign that this could work, or maybe it's just something that seems like it's gonna work but won't.

I dunno, I'm rambling now, but I'm always here to listen.

[confusionisex]

Well, it sounds like you take this stuff pretty serious like ;-). Don't worry, I do too. One thing I've noticed with Maggie in terms of myself is that I end up getting really mad when she doesn't do things that I suggest, like going to the doctor if she's sick. I know that part of it is because I don't want her to get hurt. But..she's her own person. She has to make her own mistakes, she has to get sick, etc. That's not to say I won't and don't support her, far from it. But while it's important to feel like one, I feel that it's equally important for each person to have their own independent space. Which sounds weird I know. If something's wrong (not relationship wise, I mean as in, a bad day, or 'hey, I don't feel comfortable with this'), I don't tend to tell Maggie, I just retreat and put a wall up. Which is what John could be doing, I don't know. But perhaps if you gave him a little...space or something (easier said than done I realize...) It took me...about six or seven months for me to realize that Maggie wasn't going

[anonymous]

I have read it all and I uderstand now more than ever what it means. I admit I did not know how to feel most of the time, I diddn't even know what I was feeling. I know now that I love you, I am in love with you. And if we are ever together again. Expect more than what you want from me, because that is what I want to give to you. If you will have me and take it. I know that I can not force anything. If we are together again I want it to happen naturally. I want you to want it as much as I do. You know how I feel now and that I truly feel this way, that I am not just messing around anymore. I am becoming the person that I want to be the person that you describe, I have let out the good in me and my heart is open to you.

Thankyou for all that you have done....I love you!

John