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I'm making this public, just so that you can read it.
last night was literally one of the best freaken nights of my life..
so me and Sah talked for a while and I was feeling a lil better (I wasn't feeling that great at the beginning of the day) and so she wanted to me go to the courts. so I got ready and shit and my daddy told me that I could go. mmm then the mother -while daddy was outside cutting the grass- was cooking dinner. so i was like "mom do we have a disposable camera. ohhh you know that I'm not eating here right?" and she like flipped out on me. she was like "since when aren't you gonna be home? where are you going? why didn't I know about this? blah blah blah" and I was like "mother, all the plans are set, it's all good" and she was like "well they're obviously not set. who the hell did you talk to about them" and i was like "mom you've been working all day. obviously I'm not gonna ask you cause whenever I go in that room you just yell at me to get out and shut up. you're not the only one in the house. don't think that I don't talk to dad about things. the plans are all set. I talked to daddy about them. he's fine with them" and she was like "well where are you going? who's bringing you? who's picking you up" and I was like "mom where else do I go every Monday night? TO THE COURTS! and i told you that me and sah were gonna do somethng tonight so obviously I'm going with her" and she was like "well whose picking you up" and I was like mom it's all set. you are" and she was like "well it's obviously not all set if I didn't know that I was the one picking you up" and I was like "MOTHER I HAVE A FATHER TOO. I THINK YOU"VE FORGOTTEN THAT FOR SOME REASON. hopefully he's picking me up becuase I sure as hell don't want you picking me up." and I walked upstairs. That was just the beginning of my awesomely amazing night. and then I like avoided her until I left. I stayed on the porch for a while and I was bored so I took random pictures of my ugly face with my phone for like an hour. then my dad went in the house so I decided to sit on the tractor until Sah came to pick me up and I took more pics. Then she picked me up and she was like "whoaaaa I didn't know that you had a quad" and I was like "uhhhhh I don't. that's a tractor" and she was like "ohhhhh it is huh?" haha it was great. Then we got to the courts and we decided to be cool and just stand away from everyone else for the longest time and I didn't wanna go over there for some Zachary reasons. mmmm so we were cool kids. and then alexa came and blah blah blah. lets jsut say that we were gonna walk to my cousins house (who's wicked cool and lives like 2 seconds down the street) and Sah was like omg omg omg let's spy on Zach Daryl and Corey and I was like ummm ok so we both ran up in the woods. I looked like twice and I was hiding behind the tree cause I knew that something was gonna happen if they thought that I of all people was spying on them. and then Joe's dad came and he was like hey girls (cause we started laughing when he walked by because we thought that he was gonna see us. and of course, after we started laughing he looked over) and so he started talking to us and we were trying to get him to be quiet so he walked away. haha that was great. then sarah screamed "I love you Zach" cuase they had disappeared into nowheres land all of a sudden and I was like holy shit so I ran into the middle of the road and I was like hmmm I don't think my cousin's home and so me and Sah both ran into her drive-way RIGHT AS SHE WAS BACKING OUT so we almost got ran over. yeah so we talked to her for a lil while but then she had to get going so we went for a jog back to the courts. =)
mmm then we hung three for the longest time. zach got up so i layed down on the bleachers and he was like "uhh i was sitting there. you jsut stole my seat" and I was like well you got up so oh well. and then he was like alright whatever. and then he sat down next to sah on the end of the bleachers. which was a wicked big mistake because i didnt want him sitting near me so i pushed him off like 49537 times and he got all pissed at me. and then it became a joke between me and sah and i was like "matt come sit over here i wanna talk to you" and he was like ok so he came and sat down and sahwas like "1,2,3" but I was liek mmm whatever and I pushed him off before he even got to 3. it was wicked funny. then.. ummm... cool stuff happened? and I talked to Lauren, Court, dEe, Alexa, Sarah, Sah, Matt, Ewic, Stevie V, Mike, and Tasha. andddd I think that's it. yepp. we were cool people. then eric almost sat in gum. haha. then like matt and zach had to play and dEe, court, sarah, alexa and tasha left so me sah and lauren talked. and omg Matt's nephew is so fucking adorable. i want my kid to be like him. lol. andddd so Sah was like omg omg omg let's tickle eric and I thought it was the best idea bc eric is sooo damn ticklish and so we both moved down and I started tickling him and it was the best. I love it when he laughs. it cheers me up right away. it's so cute. and so is he. and then Sah started tickling him and she wouldn't stop so i was like sarah hold it back, some on hold it back. and she wouldnt stop and so i grabbed her arms and stuff and she was like "what are you doing and i was like "i'm protecting my ewic" and so she like layed down on top of me. it was funny. then she was all excited because daddy (yesss it was the father and not the mother) came to pick us up in the convertible. haha it was greatttt.
highlights of the night;
"..and we both slept in my bed and I was like squished up against the wall" haha me trying to explain my night. none of the guys were tlaking to us and then i said that and they all turned around at the same time and they were like "WTFFFF?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!" haha it was greattt.
like 5 minutes later after we were finished tickling eric "...i ticked him last night in bed..." yeah steve, you're a cool id. and you think I'm badd? I don't tickle the kid while I'm laying in the same bed. YOU DO! haha.
mmmm that was great. me and Sah have more fun when we're not around other people. we bond easier I guess. It's great. we need to hang more before I leave. <333
then i got home and me and *a special some one* got into a fight. and it pissed the crap outta me. and Michelle wasn't online. and dEe got into a fight with the same person at the same time so I didn't wanna talk to her about it bc I didn't wanna get her even more pisseder. and so yeah..
I LOVE YOU LAUREN TORVI! p.s. I asked my dad about the whole dog sleeping on the landing thing and he said that (I forgot about this lil detail) our dog never went in the house. it was an outside dog. but he used to sleep on the landing on the back door steps instead. =)
*I'm worried about you. I'm worried about me. I'm worried about us. One fight, and all of a sudden, we're not talking for the rest of our lives. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry that I ever loved you. I'm sorry that we became friends. Sorry that we never grew farther apart. Sorry that we ever went out. Sorry that I am, and will always be, a bitch to you. Sorry that I ever met you. Sorry that we decided to be friends. Sorry that I do, and will always, hate you.
*Last night totally altered my life. There are a few things that you said to me that totally stick out in my mind;
-"Aynsley, will you please just get over me?"
-"I'll say it slow for you. There will never be anything between us ever again. Now leave me alone."
-"I'm fine with us not being friends. I don't wanna take the chance of you liking me again."
-"Well maybe you should un-wrap yourself in my life because I don't want you in it."
-"You're just jealous."
WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!?!?! uhhh best friends forever? remember saying that? whatever happened? obviously not that. that was one gay fight that we got in. All starting with "Are you jealous?" WTF!?! what is there to be jealous about?NOTHING! you're just an asshole with no heart. you're telling me about how you can't get over her* with a snap of the fingers, and then look at what you say to me; "You need to get over me." Well, guess what. I can't get over you with a snap of the fucking fingers. But, NOW I AM! I hope that we never talk again. Guess what I wore to bed last night. All your clothes. Mhmmmm, your blue hoodie that you gave me, and the shirt that you left at my party. Just as my last memory of you. Yep, I threw away all your notes and anything that you ever gave me. Not that you ever gave me anything because you were the worst boyfriend/friend ever. I hope we never tlak again. Not even one look from me. You'll never get anything good coming from me again. I HATE YOU. YOU'RE NOTHING BUT AN ASSHOLE WITH NO HEART AND NO BRAIN!!!
wtfaitaissilwyimyiwywshwmwydcbtmtotihbtwaboyislyaiaw =( =( =( =( =(
--if you understood what I jsut said you must be one fucked up person. =)
What the Fuck!?!?
But I'm gonna take the easy way out.I won't befriend or talk to you anymore. Because I know that that's what you want. And all that I wanna do is make you happy.