Just ranting...

[sweetatheena]

So the other day i fell into a total bitch fit. And here is what i wrote

Sittign alone,  Assuming i'm lost, i find myself. The person i am is someone that has "no" life. The one i am living has lost its "Zest." Am i supposed to realize this at such a young age?  At 16 i can say i have been a child, raised children, Payed house payments, bought a

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[xokittenxo]

"I feel as if i never truely had an internal child because it had been gone since i hit 8."
I have always felt the same way
ok there is good news/bad news that comes with this...
you have a choice.
you can have a gloriously normal boring life (like say me)
you can die a drug addict/and or drunk (like my cousin)
or somewhere in between. The bottom line is you have a choice :)
One day you can choose to put it behind you Choose your friends, your life, etc.
Feel free to vent and get angry.
Sweety you are entititled to your anger. It will help you heal.

[sweetatheena]

Thanks.
I just don't know how to deal with things anymore and it keeps getting worse. Whenever my life starts to make a break where i can sort myself out everything takes a horrible turn and i am so wound into a knot that i don't even know how to start and unwind it.

[pigenergy]

maybe listne to your heart? do somethings that make you feel good? take that anger and put it to good use...I believe in You...

[sweetatheena]

The thing is I am not sure if even I BELIEVE in my own self..... :(