Leave out all the rest [Aoi/Uruha] [Oneshot]
Title: Leave out all the rest
Author: sweetcandiedlie
Chapters: 1/1
Rating: PG
Warning[s]: Angst
Summary: Sometimes, you have to let go of the ones you love the most..
Notes: See end of the fic.
“I hate you.” I had whispered it but... those three words haunted me, shrieked at me and the bitter taste of them never left my palate. Sometimes I wish I never said them, that I kept them to myself because they were a lie. A big, fat, ugly lie.
God, I could never hate him. How could anyone hate someone so sweet? So dorky and just...perfect?
“Uru...” He had protested so softly, reaching out to me with a slender, gentle hand and wounded eyes. I flinched away though and I knew it hurt him more deeply than my words ever could. We were always touching after all. Our fingers always linked, a tender kiss here, a stolen hug there; never did we not touch and if we didn’t? Than I knew something was wrong.
“Just...go Aoi.” I didn’t raise my voice - I never had to. He always heard me, even when I wasn’t saying anything. It was one of the many reasons I loved him - adored him with everything I am. I bet you’re wondering why I asked him to leave and so brutally broke his heart, huh? Well, that’s easy to answer: I couldn’t take it anymore.
See, he was an assassin. It didn’t bother me, it really didn’t. I could deal with knowing those very hands that so tenderly held me at night took the life of another. I could deal with him being away for days on end (I worried like crazy but, I could - and did - deal with it). One day though, he never came home and for over two years I waited for him, foolishly refusing to believe he died.
And then, during a festival? He was there looking like he stepped right out of one of my memories. He didn’t remember me though and it killed what was left of my brittle heart. How could he forget me? How could he forget everything we’ve been through? Slowly but surly, I found out what happened and, it killed me to know my Aoi, my dear sweet Yuu had been tortured like he was.
It took another year after he was back in my life for him to trust my touch again. All those months of hard work paid off and he was finally, wholly mine again. I had thought nothing could tear us apart, that we would live our lives together until we were old and senile. I was wrong though; he went back to the very thing that almost took him permanently away from me.
So, I didn’t make him choose; being an assassin was all he knew. I pushed him away, told him I hated him and watched as he silently walked out of my life.
Sometimes I wonder if he’s still in the shadows, watching over me.. Part of me hopes he is because it fills me with hope - hope that one day he would emerge from the shadows and come to me. Ah, there I go again, being foolish. I had hurt him and hurt him deeply. There was no way he was going to come to me like a knight in dark armor (something I once playfully accused him of being) and sweep me into his arms.
My Yuu maybe an assassin but, his heart was tender and delicate and, I had broken it - crushed it cruelly with my words. It...it was for the best though. I loved him - truly, wholly loved him - and I wasn’t going to change him; I certainly wasn’t going to make him choose between me and the only thing he knew.
I just wish....w-was that me or did something just move? Frowning softly and feeling my heart race within my chest as, whatever it was that moved began to stop out of the shadows. I couldn’t help the soft gasp that left me nor could I help the sting of tears.
“I-it’s you....”
Dark eyes darted about the dimly lite room and he stepped closer, a delicate hand hesitantly reaching out towards me. “Yeah,” he whispered and I slowly stood, accepting his touch by lacing my fingers with his. “It’s me.”
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Notes Annnnnd, that's the end of it *crackles* Kinda leaves you hanging, doesn't it? Anyway, I might make a sequel of this but~ I'm not sure. Oh! This is the finished - and edited - version of this. I didn't think I'd ever finish it but, surprise! I did lol
I hoped you readers enjoyed it~ ♥
Author: sweetcandiedlie
Chapters: 1/1
Rating: PG
Warning[s]: Angst
Summary: Sometimes, you have to let go of the ones you love the most..
Notes: See end of the fic.
“I hate you.” I had whispered it but... those three words haunted me, shrieked at me and the bitter taste of them never left my palate. Sometimes I wish I never said them, that I kept them to myself because they were a lie. A big, fat, ugly lie.
God, I could never hate him. How could anyone hate someone so sweet? So dorky and just...perfect?
“Uru...” He had protested so softly, reaching out to me with a slender, gentle hand and wounded eyes. I flinched away though and I knew it hurt him more deeply than my words ever could. We were always touching after all. Our fingers always linked, a tender kiss here, a stolen hug there; never did we not touch and if we didn’t? Than I knew something was wrong.
“Just...go Aoi.” I didn’t raise my voice - I never had to. He always heard me, even when I wasn’t saying anything. It was one of the many reasons I loved him - adored him with everything I am. I bet you’re wondering why I asked him to leave and so brutally broke his heart, huh? Well, that’s easy to answer: I couldn’t take it anymore.
See, he was an assassin. It didn’t bother me, it really didn’t. I could deal with knowing those very hands that so tenderly held me at night took the life of another. I could deal with him being away for days on end (I worried like crazy but, I could - and did - deal with it). One day though, he never came home and for over two years I waited for him, foolishly refusing to believe he died.
And then, during a festival? He was there looking like he stepped right out of one of my memories. He didn’t remember me though and it killed what was left of my brittle heart. How could he forget me? How could he forget everything we’ve been through? Slowly but surly, I found out what happened and, it killed me to know my Aoi, my dear sweet Yuu had been tortured like he was.
It took another year after he was back in my life for him to trust my touch again. All those months of hard work paid off and he was finally, wholly mine again. I had thought nothing could tear us apart, that we would live our lives together until we were old and senile. I was wrong though; he went back to the very thing that almost took him permanently away from me.
So, I didn’t make him choose; being an assassin was all he knew. I pushed him away, told him I hated him and watched as he silently walked out of my life.
Sometimes I wonder if he’s still in the shadows, watching over me.. Part of me hopes he is because it fills me with hope - hope that one day he would emerge from the shadows and come to me. Ah, there I go again, being foolish. I had hurt him and hurt him deeply. There was no way he was going to come to me like a knight in dark armor (something I once playfully accused him of being) and sweep me into his arms.
My Yuu maybe an assassin but, his heart was tender and delicate and, I had broken it - crushed it cruelly with my words. It...it was for the best though. I loved him - truly, wholly loved him - and I wasn’t going to change him; I certainly wasn’t going to make him choose between me and the only thing he knew.
I just wish....w-was that me or did something just move? Frowning softly and feeling my heart race within my chest as, whatever it was that moved began to stop out of the shadows. I couldn’t help the soft gasp that left me nor could I help the sting of tears.
“I-it’s you....”
Dark eyes darted about the dimly lite room and he stepped closer, a delicate hand hesitantly reaching out towards me. “Yeah,” he whispered and I slowly stood, accepting his touch by lacing my fingers with his. “It’s me.”
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Notes Annnnnd, that's the end of it *crackles* Kinda leaves you hanging, doesn't it? Anyway, I might make a sequel of this but~ I'm not sure. Oh! This is the finished - and edited - version of this. I didn't think I'd ever finish it but, surprise! I did lol
I hoped you readers enjoyed it~ ♥