Dear Time
Title : Dear Time;
Author: sweetcharisma18
Genre:angst
Pairing : YooSu
Rating: PG-13
Dear Time,
Everyone says that pain fades away with time, that you are the best healer. But how can it be that this does not happen with me? Hours have turned into days and days into months but I’m still living and holding on to the past.
I go out with my friends, work, read and I try to smile but all I think is about him. The sweet smile, the warm hugs, the shy kisses, from the moment I wake up till the moment I fall asleep memories keep coming back to me and when I close my eyes to fall asleep his face becomes clearer. I still need him, I still care about him. As the day ends I hope that the next day my pain will reduce but my heart still hurts.
Every time I promise myself to forget about him and go out of my house, my feet take me to the places where we made our precious memories together, the park bench where we shared our lunch, the café where we had many dates, the amusement park where we celebrated our anniversary, the maple tree under which we spent our lazy afternoon’s and the thought of forgetting him leaves me like an autumn leaf caught in harsh wind.
What about the promises we had made of being together with each other and for each other forever? Why was our forever so short? I could not even convey all the over flowing emotions I felt for him. Even though the promises we wrote on the shore were washed away by waves I thought that no matter what happened waves of time could no wash away these promises from our heart.
If he wanted to leave me why did he smile for me? Why did he care about me? Why did he make me believe that he would be with me? Why? How could he just leave me and not even glancing back? How could he leave me without answering these questions? Was I so insignificant to him that he moved on without glancing back? How could the love we shared for so many years just fade away?
Even though my heart has broken because of him I cannot blame him because deep inside me I feel that he him self did not wanted to do so.
Well, if we look at the brightside it was through him that I came to know what about the heavenly feeling of love is. He taught me how to open my heart for others and love them unconditionally. We made the best memories together and I shared the best time of my life with him. Whatever I am today is all thanks to him. I’ve decided that I will no more cry or complain for the pain he had given me but I’ll bury it deep in my heart and remember it as my gain. I am not strong enough to completely forget him but at least I can try again, though I may not be able to love anyone else but still……
You must be wondering that why am I writing this letter to you. It’s because I just need to put the blame of my heartbreak on some one and I cannot put this blame on him as I love him too much to do so. May be our time was just not right. Maybe we could meet again and start a new love story. But next time please don’t take him away from me. We should also have our own forever. Right?
Park YooChun.
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YooChun slowly folded the letter and put it in an envelope. He wore his coat and went out in the cold winter. While the cold wind caressed his face he kept wondering to himself that why did he write this letter. After walked for a while he bent down and kept the letter on a smooth surface.
“You must be wondering that I ‘m slowly becoming weird. Guess it rubbed of from you to me. Don’t worry I’ll be alright.”
With this he turned before he started crying again in front of the marble which was carved ‘Kim Park JunSu’
If only YooChun had not turned so soon he could have seen a man dressed in white kneel down and would have been able to see the pain hidden in those teardrop shaped eyes.
“YooChun-ah I loved you, I love you and I will love no one but you.”
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Why do I always write angst?
I'll write a sequel as I do not have the heart to kill JunSu.
Should I write a sequel or not?