Alright, so I am relatively confused on why I always have such stupid boy troubles. Especially when it starts to involve a good friend. Ohhh the heartache. I dont know what to do. Some suggest just say something, others say take a problem out of the situation, and I just say...ahhhhhh!!!! Whatever it is that I have to do, I'm sure it will come ( Read more... )

Alright... I dont know how to explain what I am feeling right now, but its down right shitty. I should have just slept through today so I wont have to worry about anything. First set of news...the guy that declared his love for me and I refused is now engaged. Congrats to him, but seriously now, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!! Him and I would ( Read more... )

This has been the week from hell....I don't have anything to say but that. From my probs to my families probs. I am surprised I haven't found the nearest knife to slit my throat with! I am still stunned with my brother. Why is he turning into someone like this? I am so worried about him, I dont know what to do. I wish there was some way I can ( Read more... )

Ok, so conversations on my ride with Heather have made it difficult to get Teddy off my mind...Thanks really, I needed this...:(. I dont know what I'm thinking or doing anymore. Just remembering old times and driving past his old place...does bad things. I don't even know what else to say. I wish that things had turned out different. I wish he ( Read more... )

well I haven't hated myself like this in a long time. And since I can talk to no one...I guess writing it down to show everyone how I feel is the best decision. I HATE MYSELF! I can't find enough words of dissapointment to describe it really. I told myself I'd never do it again, yet here I am...ONCE AGAIN doing it. I let them hurt me. While ( Read more... )

I guess I can write again...since like, Heather is writing journals every hour!!! Haha...JK. Although I really have nothing much to say. I'm kinda afraid to go to sleep. I don't want to have another dream like the one I had this afternoon. That was almost unbearable. I wanna call him, but I just don't know what to say. This is a weird ( Read more... )

This is my last entry...I am not writing no more. If u have any questions to ask me, I guess I have to say...I GUESS U SHOULDA BEEN BETTA FRIENDS!!!

So, in case anyone didn't know...I love boys! I dont know what it is about them(WINK HEATHER), or whatever I wanna say, but I truly love boys! So I think I'm relatively doing well with this, I don't think I'm ever gonna talk to Teddy thing so far. But I only decided it yesterday....Oh well, obviously not worth my time, or as Andy repeatedly ( Read more... )

Have u ever had one of those moments where u just feel the need to express yourself? well I think my expression, if I had the chance to voice it would make me seem real bad. REAL bad. I don't know whats wrong with me. Hope it goes away soon though ( Read more... )

so its been a LONGG time since I wrote in here for my one reader...Yes Melissa, that would be u. So here goes...I am bored cuz u wouldn't come back up for the weekend. We're totally fighting ( Read more... )