Comments | sweetdarlingirl: It's some spirit, I used to know

sweetdarlingirl

It's some spirit, I used to know

Mar 07, 2005 23:30

My minor freakout of yesterday has carried over into today and escalated into a minor breakdown. I decided yesterday not to go to school next year. I don't have my heart in it, not at all. All I'm doing is continuing to waste a lot of my parents money; money they don't have. It makes me feel awful and criminal and horrible. I don't know what's ( Read more... )

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la_bete March 9 2005, 09:43:18 UTC

How you doing? Still feeling the same way?

mentalwhoosh March 9 2005, 14:33:58 UTC

Ummm vaguely better but not really. Thanks for asking though = )

la_bete March 10 2005, 10:07:47 UTC

I love your icon. Very cute. :)

mentalwhoosh March 10 2005, 12:51:34 UTC

Haha, thanks, I like it too.

disco_suede86 March 9 2005, 11:59:56 UTC

caitlin... i know I've stopped writing in my livejournal (too much to say, not enough space), but I want you to know, regardless (and I'm sure you hate hearing this from almost every 18 year old on the planet), that I am equally unsure, even though what I'm experiencing out here is not exactly the same to what you're going through, it's hard not to feel almost surrounded by this weird-ish grey area, where nothing makes total sense, and attempting to embrace the unexpectedness of everything while still feeling a little alone becomes overwhelming, in a way. I don't know... what a weird evolution. Do you ever think about where you've come from (and I don't mean this in a negative way at all) and where you are presently, on all fronts, and kind of wonder something along the lines of, "How did this happen?" I mean, what, only seven/eight months ago we were driving around chicago trying to find things to do. I don't presently have my cell phone, and rehearsals have been running until 12 AM every night, but expect a late night call from me ( ... )

sweetdarlingirl March 9 2005, 14:33:32 UTC

Yeah, I know, it seems like pretty much everyone is in the same position more or less, but unlike me, they're just like "Ok, whatever, I'll keep going to school until I can figure out what I want to do" and for me it isn't really that simple. Blah. I miss you though, you're all silly for calling me the other day and not picking up when I called back. But yes, call me soon, I love you too.