I guess things are better.

well no.. I lied actually.

If I seem better, It's an act.
I figure If I act happy.
Then I'll be happy.
But so far It isnt working.

I guess I have hope for the future tho
Cos I don't think things could get worse.
They have to get better... Right?

So I think I'm moving soon.
Yes again.
Well.. actually now that I think of it.
I think ( Read more... )

Right right. so this is my EMO update.
I feel like I haven't had one of these in a while.
SO.where to begin.

Today was alright.
I didn't get to see Leah. Sad.
But i did see... (in order of appearance)
Mom.
Kayleigh.
Brother.
Staci.
Kyle Taylor.
Kristin.
Kamyrn.
Dad.
Lewis.
Timmy.
Nick.
Jonny.
Sister.
Steff.
and i think that's it.
if I forgot you. sorry.
If ( Read more... )

Todays date = January 8th = MY BIRTHDAY!

In case most of you forgot (cos i almost did)
Sunday is MY BIRTHDAY!
Snuck up on me.
Too much drama to remember a birthday.
but hey. 18 isn't all that great anyways... right?
                  Did I mention. Brunettes are so hott right now.

This is how I spent the first day of 2006.
( This is screaming )

I'm so happy to start a new year.
So much has happend that I want to forget about.
I'm ready to move on, and I'm happy I was with the people
that I plan to keep in my life.
HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!!!
( Juss a lil bit. )

I need someone to help me be strong
and honestly tell me that i'm not wrong.

I can't wait to get home.
I need to get home.
I tried to leave today, but I couldn't make it to the airport in time.
Complete letdown.
If you only knew the half.

This may sound weird.
since it's coming from me.
but right now I have NEVER felt so alone. Ever.
Friends, they don't feel as close, atleast not as close as I thought
and even when im surround by family here,
I still feel alone.
People you thought would always be there for you
fuck you over. They lie.
I don't like having all this time to think
Arizona is fun ( Read more... )

Im in Arizona. The weather is weird as fuck. It's cold sometimes.

and then its not sometimes. Today it was like 75 in the sun but then like 55 in the shade.

I like it tho.

Being away from everyone has givin me too much time to think about shit.

I don't like it. hah

I miss everyone like crazy.

I'm sorry for my drunk dialing on Saturday.

I'm sorry ( Read more... )

Ohkay okay. One last update before I leave.
I can't just leave without a picture update.

( So here it goes. Short but sweet. )