Obstacles we face (17/??)
x Title: Obstacles we face (17/??)
x Author: sweetgirl2710
x Rating: G or PG-13 (sorry.. don't know what the rating should be)
x Pairing: ShoXOC
x Disclaimer: I do not own arashi just the plot
x Plot: He was busy. They didn't have time. She went for him, but disaster lies ahead of her.
Kyle’s POV
Everyone just sat still in their seats not knowing how to react from what they just heard about. I stood up and dragged my seat beside the hospital bed. She lied there like an angel. My hand unconsciously move to her and started stroking it. She lied there motionless only a tank by her side to help from falling into perpetual darkness. Even with her mask on, I can’t deny that my little sister had grown up into one beautiful woman. Her face was peaceful, but there is something in her expression that I can’t explain.
“You didn’t have to strain yourself this far, Liz. You should have taken better care of yourself. You of all people know about how your body is working. What do you think mom, dad, James, and Maya will do to me when they hear about you? They would surely kill me!” I mumbled to her sleeping figure.
“Come on, stop being like this. Stop closing us off. Let us be in your world. We will continue to worry more about you if you’re going to keep on being secretive especially about these things… I know you’re stubborn and prideful, but can’t you rely on us more? What the hell would I do if you had an attack while you were alone again? I don’t even want to think about it. Haruka… For now just rest and be healthy for us, okay?”
I stood up and gave her forehead a kiss. I turned to the other guys. They were doing their own things. Matsumoto-san was near the window pressing furiously on his keypad. Sakurai-san was quietly seated in the corner reading a newspaper. Aiba-san and Nino was playing something with their thumbs while Ohno-san looked spaced out.
“Sakurai-san?” I called out. He placed the newspaper down to look at me.
“Yes?”
“Can we talk for a while?” he looked shocked and hesitant. A small chuckle left my lips.
“Don’t worry. I won’t harm you.” I said.
“I wasn’t thinking of anything like that.” He replied
“So, can we?” he nodded an affirmative.
I looked at Nino and he raised a brow at me. I gave him a slight shake of the head. He seemed to understand and then turned his attention back to their game.
“I will be discharging Haruka.” They looked confused.
“Demo, Haruka-chan still hasn’t recovered yet.” Aiba-san said.
“She doesn’t like hospitals. It gives her the feeling of death. Don’t worry her doctor is already waiting for her in the house.”
“I think that would be a great idea.” I heard Ohno-san silently say.
“Thanks. I’ll be leaving her in your hands for a while. Please call me if anything happens while the both of us are out.” They nodded affirmatively, and I turned my back on them and kissed Haruka’s forehead once again and then headed out for the door.
Sho’s POV
I silently followed him out of the room. Somehow too many things are being divulged to me this day. It makes me think how much more have I not known about her. How she have kept it from me for so long, I really don’t know.
We went to the doctor’s room. The both of them talked for a while having a few arguments here and there, but in the end they shook hands and a smile on both of their faces. Our next stop was on the nurses’ desk. He signed a few papers and then gave a few bills. Then he walked away from the nurses’ desk and started to walk to the exit.
“Don’t be so tensed up. I won’t harm you.” He suddenly said. For the first time I realized how my body was all tensed up. I started to relax myself.
“Let’s talk in my car.” He said. Our walk to the car was as silent as it can be, and it continued even as we sat inside the car. He asked the driver to go out for a while.
I shifted uncomfortably on my seat. He was beside me, but he looked deep in thought. I looked out the window and watched some of the cars come and go. I was starting to doze off, but a voice suddenly echoed in the car.
“Sakurai-san” He said. My body tensed up once again as I turned back to face him.
“Please call me Sho. I feel like my dad when I am being called Sakurai-san.”
“Jaa, Sho-kun?”
“Hai?”
“I have been meaning to ask you something….” He trailed off.
“Please do ask.” I told him.
“I don’t want to pry into your relationship with Haruka or anything…” I gave him the time to finish his sentence. Somehow I got the trepidation from whatever he was going to say. I mean every talk like this ends up with cheesy things.
“Then…. I’ll get to it.”
“Please do”
“How is my sister in bed?” That caught me off guard. I felt myself choke on my saliva, and I began coughing violently. Maybe I heard him wrongly.
“Pardon?”
“Dude, I was joking!” He laughed. “I just wanted you to loosen up. You were too tense.”
“Oh… sorry, and by the way you succeeded in making me loosen up. Thanks..”
“No problem.”
“Ano, I don’t want to be rude, but I know that there’s something you want to talk to me about and it would be better if we could go back to Haruka as soon as possible.” He laughed out loud.
“May I ask if I said something funny?” I asked a little irked.
“Sorry sorry, it’s just that you and Haruka seem to have many similarities.”
“Eh?”
“Don’t mind me… Anyway, I’ll be straight to the point then…” I slumped back to the seat and stared at the ceiling.
“I’m close to my sister, and I can read her pretty well. She has been acting differently ever since I arrived here in Japan. It seems to me that my sister is becoming more of a workaholic than she was before, and I know that she only does that when a big problem occurs. I just want to ask if you had a fight with my little sis?”
I started to weigh the pros and cons of answering truthfully, and in the end I decided to just say it. “Yes, we are currently having problems.”
He smiled a bitter smile, “Then I was right.”
“Is there a problem?”
“Is it fine if I told a piece of my life to you?”
“If that’s fine with you then I would be more than pleased to.”
He nodded a little then his face looked so far in thought.
“When we were little, my brother and I always head home after school. There was no time for festivities or such. It was a rule from our parents. Of course, being the playful boy that I was, I disagreed with my parents. My rebellion was useless since I know that I can’t defy my parent’s orders. So my everyday life cycle was waking up, go to school, and then go home. Every time I and my brother arrived home, my little sister will be waiting for us. She would always greet us with a smile and hug us. She did all that even though she was forbidden to walk so much or else she might get an attack.” He stopped. He deeply breathed in and out.
Kyle’s POV
I deeply breathed in and out to relax myself.
“But I took her for granted. One Friday started out the usual, but when school was out I never knew that it would be able to change my life so much. It was the usual Friday, and my friends were going out that night to a concert. It was no ordinary concert because the concert was of my favorite band. As much as I wanted to go, I could not. That day, my parents were on a business trip and my brother was doing a project at his friend’s house. I had no choice, but to go home with a heavy heart.”
“When I got back, my sister was there waiting for me. She happily greeted me home, and I plastered a fake smile and tried to act normal. I thought that she believed my act, but I was wrong. We were in her bedroom and she was blabbing nonstop like she would always do. A friend of mine texted me saying that he had extra tickets to the concert and asked me if I wanted to go. Somehow seeing Haruka happy while I was suffering made me really annoyed. I had an outburst. We got into a heated argument. I told her that she was a burden to me, to us, and to everyone that is around her. It just somehow slipped out of my mouth, but I swear to God that it was not at the least the case. I remember her exact words that day.”
‘I have known that from way back. I have hated how weak I am! I hate myself for having this body! I have already hated myself from always being a burden to everyone! I always hated how much you guys need to sacrifice your childhood for me! You don’t even have the slightest idea how much I hate myself… because… because I know that I am only a nuisance. That’s… That’s why I try… I try to always smile even though I’m hurt… because… because I know I don’t…. I don’t have the right to be sad.’
‘I know that you want to want to go…. So, just go… I’ll be fine. You need to live your life. Please….’
“Those were her exact words, but I was an a-hole and still decided to go to the concert. I was out the whole night. I came home still wasted from last night’s event, and found the house eerily quiet. Out of nowhere, my brother came out. His eyes were burning with fury. I asked him why the house was quiet, but I just got a punch on the face as a reply. I learned that Haruka was brought to the hospital the night before. She had a major attack, and she was in a very critical condition. It was just until that time that my conscience was working its way.”
“You could never imagine how much I loathed and blamed myself for what happened to my little sis. When she was discharged from the hospital, everything changed. Her heart became weaker, She seldom smiles, and our relationship was very far from okay. The only times she would talk to me was when it was needed or it was just a one-word reply.”
“It went on for almost 2 years. Believe me when I say that up until this day I still regret that day. Because even though she looks fine today I know that she isn’t. She never really opened up to anyone anymore. What she is now is not even half of how sweet she was before, and every time I see her smile I can’t help but think back to the day when she always smiles.”
I turned to face him. He had a poker face on.
“Sho-kun, I am warning you. You better take care of my little sister! Trust me when I say that I will get back at you when I hear that you’ve hurt my sister. If that day comes… I don’t even think you would want to think about it.”
Sho’s POV
“…If that day comes… I don’t even think you would want to think about it.”
Chills ran down my spine. His words and tone would really make anyone’s hair rise. I just felt myself nodding slowly.
A/N: Comments/Criticism will be greatly appreciated!
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x Author: sweetgirl2710
x Rating: G or PG-13 (sorry.. don't know what the rating should be)
x Pairing: ShoXOC
x Disclaimer: I do not own arashi just the plot
x Plot: He was busy. They didn't have time. She went for him, but disaster lies ahead of her.
Kyle’s POV
Everyone just sat still in their seats not knowing how to react from what they just heard about. I stood up and dragged my seat beside the hospital bed. She lied there like an angel. My hand unconsciously move to her and started stroking it. She lied there motionless only a tank by her side to help from falling into perpetual darkness. Even with her mask on, I can’t deny that my little sister had grown up into one beautiful woman. Her face was peaceful, but there is something in her expression that I can’t explain.
“You didn’t have to strain yourself this far, Liz. You should have taken better care of yourself. You of all people know about how your body is working. What do you think mom, dad, James, and Maya will do to me when they hear about you? They would surely kill me!” I mumbled to her sleeping figure.
“Come on, stop being like this. Stop closing us off. Let us be in your world. We will continue to worry more about you if you’re going to keep on being secretive especially about these things… I know you’re stubborn and prideful, but can’t you rely on us more? What the hell would I do if you had an attack while you were alone again? I don’t even want to think about it. Haruka… For now just rest and be healthy for us, okay?”
I stood up and gave her forehead a kiss. I turned to the other guys. They were doing their own things. Matsumoto-san was near the window pressing furiously on his keypad. Sakurai-san was quietly seated in the corner reading a newspaper. Aiba-san and Nino was playing something with their thumbs while Ohno-san looked spaced out.
“Sakurai-san?” I called out. He placed the newspaper down to look at me.
“Yes?”
“Can we talk for a while?” he looked shocked and hesitant. A small chuckle left my lips.
“Don’t worry. I won’t harm you.” I said.
“I wasn’t thinking of anything like that.” He replied
“So, can we?” he nodded an affirmative.
I looked at Nino and he raised a brow at me. I gave him a slight shake of the head. He seemed to understand and then turned his attention back to their game.
“I will be discharging Haruka.” They looked confused.
“Demo, Haruka-chan still hasn’t recovered yet.” Aiba-san said.
“She doesn’t like hospitals. It gives her the feeling of death. Don’t worry her doctor is already waiting for her in the house.”
“I think that would be a great idea.” I heard Ohno-san silently say.
“Thanks. I’ll be leaving her in your hands for a while. Please call me if anything happens while the both of us are out.” They nodded affirmatively, and I turned my back on them and kissed Haruka’s forehead once again and then headed out for the door.
Sho’s POV
I silently followed him out of the room. Somehow too many things are being divulged to me this day. It makes me think how much more have I not known about her. How she have kept it from me for so long, I really don’t know.
We went to the doctor’s room. The both of them talked for a while having a few arguments here and there, but in the end they shook hands and a smile on both of their faces. Our next stop was on the nurses’ desk. He signed a few papers and then gave a few bills. Then he walked away from the nurses’ desk and started to walk to the exit.
“Don’t be so tensed up. I won’t harm you.” He suddenly said. For the first time I realized how my body was all tensed up. I started to relax myself.
“Let’s talk in my car.” He said. Our walk to the car was as silent as it can be, and it continued even as we sat inside the car. He asked the driver to go out for a while.
I shifted uncomfortably on my seat. He was beside me, but he looked deep in thought. I looked out the window and watched some of the cars come and go. I was starting to doze off, but a voice suddenly echoed in the car.
“Sakurai-san” He said. My body tensed up once again as I turned back to face him.
“Please call me Sho. I feel like my dad when I am being called Sakurai-san.”
“Jaa, Sho-kun?”
“Hai?”
“I have been meaning to ask you something….” He trailed off.
“Please do ask.” I told him.
“I don’t want to pry into your relationship with Haruka or anything…” I gave him the time to finish his sentence. Somehow I got the trepidation from whatever he was going to say. I mean every talk like this ends up with cheesy things.
“Then…. I’ll get to it.”
“Please do”
“How is my sister in bed?” That caught me off guard. I felt myself choke on my saliva, and I began coughing violently. Maybe I heard him wrongly.
“Pardon?”
“Dude, I was joking!” He laughed. “I just wanted you to loosen up. You were too tense.”
“Oh… sorry, and by the way you succeeded in making me loosen up. Thanks..”
“No problem.”
“Ano, I don’t want to be rude, but I know that there’s something you want to talk to me about and it would be better if we could go back to Haruka as soon as possible.” He laughed out loud.
“May I ask if I said something funny?” I asked a little irked.
“Sorry sorry, it’s just that you and Haruka seem to have many similarities.”
“Eh?”
“Don’t mind me… Anyway, I’ll be straight to the point then…” I slumped back to the seat and stared at the ceiling.
“I’m close to my sister, and I can read her pretty well. She has been acting differently ever since I arrived here in Japan. It seems to me that my sister is becoming more of a workaholic than she was before, and I know that she only does that when a big problem occurs. I just want to ask if you had a fight with my little sis?”
I started to weigh the pros and cons of answering truthfully, and in the end I decided to just say it. “Yes, we are currently having problems.”
He smiled a bitter smile, “Then I was right.”
“Is there a problem?”
“Is it fine if I told a piece of my life to you?”
“If that’s fine with you then I would be more than pleased to.”
He nodded a little then his face looked so far in thought.
“When we were little, my brother and I always head home after school. There was no time for festivities or such. It was a rule from our parents. Of course, being the playful boy that I was, I disagreed with my parents. My rebellion was useless since I know that I can’t defy my parent’s orders. So my everyday life cycle was waking up, go to school, and then go home. Every time I and my brother arrived home, my little sister will be waiting for us. She would always greet us with a smile and hug us. She did all that even though she was forbidden to walk so much or else she might get an attack.” He stopped. He deeply breathed in and out.
Kyle’s POV
I deeply breathed in and out to relax myself.
“But I took her for granted. One Friday started out the usual, but when school was out I never knew that it would be able to change my life so much. It was the usual Friday, and my friends were going out that night to a concert. It was no ordinary concert because the concert was of my favorite band. As much as I wanted to go, I could not. That day, my parents were on a business trip and my brother was doing a project at his friend’s house. I had no choice, but to go home with a heavy heart.”
“When I got back, my sister was there waiting for me. She happily greeted me home, and I plastered a fake smile and tried to act normal. I thought that she believed my act, but I was wrong. We were in her bedroom and she was blabbing nonstop like she would always do. A friend of mine texted me saying that he had extra tickets to the concert and asked me if I wanted to go. Somehow seeing Haruka happy while I was suffering made me really annoyed. I had an outburst. We got into a heated argument. I told her that she was a burden to me, to us, and to everyone that is around her. It just somehow slipped out of my mouth, but I swear to God that it was not at the least the case. I remember her exact words that day.”
‘I have known that from way back. I have hated how weak I am! I hate myself for having this body! I have already hated myself from always being a burden to everyone! I always hated how much you guys need to sacrifice your childhood for me! You don’t even have the slightest idea how much I hate myself… because… because I know that I am only a nuisance. That’s… That’s why I try… I try to always smile even though I’m hurt… because… because I know I don’t…. I don’t have the right to be sad.’
‘I know that you want to want to go…. So, just go… I’ll be fine. You need to live your life. Please….’
“Those were her exact words, but I was an a-hole and still decided to go to the concert. I was out the whole night. I came home still wasted from last night’s event, and found the house eerily quiet. Out of nowhere, my brother came out. His eyes were burning with fury. I asked him why the house was quiet, but I just got a punch on the face as a reply. I learned that Haruka was brought to the hospital the night before. She had a major attack, and she was in a very critical condition. It was just until that time that my conscience was working its way.”
“You could never imagine how much I loathed and blamed myself for what happened to my little sis. When she was discharged from the hospital, everything changed. Her heart became weaker, She seldom smiles, and our relationship was very far from okay. The only times she would talk to me was when it was needed or it was just a one-word reply.”
“It went on for almost 2 years. Believe me when I say that up until this day I still regret that day. Because even though she looks fine today I know that she isn’t. She never really opened up to anyone anymore. What she is now is not even half of how sweet she was before, and every time I see her smile I can’t help but think back to the day when she always smiles.”
I turned to face him. He had a poker face on.
“Sho-kun, I am warning you. You better take care of my little sister! Trust me when I say that I will get back at you when I hear that you’ve hurt my sister. If that day comes… I don’t even think you would want to think about it.”
Sho’s POV
“…If that day comes… I don’t even think you would want to think about it.”
Chills ran down my spine. His words and tone would really make anyone’s hair rise. I just felt myself nodding slowly.
A/N: Comments/Criticism will be greatly appreciated!
Haven't read the past chapters?
Fanfic Masterpost