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[sweetiq282]

So I've been holding this in for a while, but I feel like I need to get it out. I don't know if it'll start something or if most of you will just brush it off, but I'm gunna go ahead and say what I'm feeling. Maybe it's just a normal phase that people go through, but I just don't feel like I belong anymore. I find myself thinking that a lot of

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[sweetiq282]

you didn't cross boundaries.. thats the kind of stuff that i wanted to hear.. it didnt apply to you, but i appreciate your opinion.. you're probably one of the very few who will respond

[lifeofdavidgale]

NO don't worry I will respond too, but i will add first hand knowledge and this will probablly won't be the compliments and stuff you were looking for. But i do not care anymore. If we are in the sharing are our feelings even if it causes something mood i might as well do it myself. First of all yes I think you are a hypocrite, but i also think we all are at times. And you say that you don't feel that were close anymore, but you surely can't be refering to me because we were never close to begin with. Maybe part of the reason you have been distanced is because you found new friends or new boys to chase around. Ever since we had our mini fall out you have made no major attempt to talk to me or a few others. It is clear that the only person that you ever cared about becoming close to again was jess not any of us. So I am sorry if things are different, but when we aren't the ones you want to talk to and you just kind of disappear what are we suppose to do. I'm not about to chase anyone esspecially someone that I was never really close

[sweetiq282]

it is what i asked for, thats exactly what i wanted.. i wasnt asking for any compliments, i just wanted to know what everyone else was thinking.. and we were close at one point, just not close to the point where i always poured my heart out to you. I don't expect you to chase me around, but whenever im in a bad mood it just seems like you have to do something to piss me off even more, and i know that's the way you are, but this is the way i am. I've considered myself a hypocrite ever since you've brought that to my attention, and yeah everyone is. But that whole blowout was between you and me and i dont understand why relationships between me and other people changed because of it. It's not true that the only person i care about being close with is jess. I've been upset about you and jake and gina acting different around me all of a sudden. Maybe you guys havent changed at all, maybe its me, but i tend to feel awkward whenever im around you guys because i feel like you dont want me to be there. When i feel that way i tend to find

[lifeofdavidgale]

I'm glad I could help. "i want you to be honest with me, but if I know the advice a friend is going to give and if i know its not going to help my situation then i just wont bother talking to them because i figure if i know what they're going to say, then what's the point?" If i remember correctly you never acctually knew what i was goign to say it was just what i told vicky so you assumed. Second of all if i remember correctly the advice i gave vicky and was what you thought iw as goign to give you acctually was right. YOu and Jess ahve became close again. So to say you know it won't help, is wrong. I joke with everyone if you don't want to joke with you when your in a bad mood where a fucking sign that says "i have a stick up my ass" I can't read minds how am i suppose to know that a joke and teasing that i do to vicky you jenelle ect. will piss you off? Maybe your relationship with Jake and Gina have changed because you have treated them differntley to i am not goign to speak for them bu thow can you assume that our fallout is waht

[sweetiq282]

okay so vicky was in the same situation as i was and i already knew the advice you gave her, so i did assume that you were going to tell me the same advice, we have become close again, but at that point i truly thought that it would never work out. and everyone knows when im in a bad mood, i tend to look pissed/upset, i don't talk and stuff like that, so next time you're around i'll be sure to wear a sign that says "i have a stick up my ass" so you dont piss me off even more, if thats what it takes. and i dont know if thats the reason why gina and jake are different, thats part of the reason why i even wrote this thing because i dont know why things changed and i want to know why. yeah it may seem that i only cared about jess, but thats because i was so close with jess, she was my best friend, of course im going to be really upset if we're in a fight or if we're not talking, but just because i wasnt close with you guys doesnt mean that im not going to want to stay friends with you, but when you guys stop talking to me too i figure

[lifeofdavidgale]

First of all i only wrote the thing about the everyone else feelign the same way because I was partially trying to help don't cry or complain about somehting in here if you don't want me to help. Or if you do want me to help tell me exactly what to say because thats the only thing you will listen to or not get pissed at. Plus you always look pissed/upset. I know that comment about that was suppose to imply i don't know you but that day you flipped at me no one knew you were in a bad mood so that is bullshit. Maybe you should learn to lighten up. Ok so it only seems like you care about jess because you guys are so close tahts fine, but i just want to throw the fact that i have known you since kindergarten out there. I don't think that means anything to you but i just thought i would let you know our past. After we had that phone conversation and things seemed like they may change you didn't talk to me or seem like you made an attempt to change so how is my fault that i stopped talking to you? Now i'm jsut rambling but there is so much

[sweetiq282]

so in my mind, this is basically translating into "you're a selfish bitch and you should start thinking about other people" and if thats what you're trying to say then just say it stop going around it. i'd like you to know that all i do is think about other people, it may not seem that way but its true. okay i didnt know i always looked pissed or upset.. thats a new one, and for your information jenelle knew so at least one person knew if not more, and here's a big hint.. if i say im not in the mood THEN DONT DO IT.. its that easy, but no, every time i try to warn you you just keep on going and then you wonder why i flip out? and you think i didnt know that we've known each other since kindergarden? you're acting as if im blind to our past.. no, i know our past, dont talk to me like im some dumb person that shields herself from the world. and did you ever think that after that phone conversation YOU were the one that didn't talk to me? why are you putting all the blame on me here? i called you, i poured my heart out to you, yet after

[hopeless10]

hiii! =D

umm i think that things should go back to the way that they were like... freshman year with gina and aimee added to the mix too. cause i really didnt know them and stuff. umm yeah. i love when we use to have those "get togethers" every weekend and stuff. i just think that we should all just forget everything and start over. cause having alllll of you guys as best friends was amazing. i hate how none of us can be at the same place.. ever. im not talking everytime, because im sure id kill someone, but like every once and a while wouldnt kill anyone.

well anyways i <3 you and i cant wait for our sleepover!! ♥!!!

[sweetiq282]

yeah that would be nice but sometimes its kinda hard to just start all over, i wish it was that easy :\

and i cant wait either.. we need it! have fun in florida :)

[silverdevil]

One suggestion that I have to offer:

Make ties of varying strengths with various people. If one tie breaks, you still have many others supporting you.

Minus the metaphor: Don't let all of your friends be in the same group.

[sweetiq282]

thats kind of hard because we're already in the same group.. although now we're kind of separating but i dont really want that to happen. its all too complicated

[silverdevil]

I was saying that you should find some of your acquaintances and get to know them better.