If you have to estimate the amount of trashbags full of clothes in my room right now, it's a ridiculous amount. Twenty trashbags full of sweaters, shirts, shoes, skirts, and who knows what else. My mission to become a minimalist starts today. I plan to downsize my collection of clothes in half and give the rest to the salvation army. I could ( Read more... )

I have a flaw. I have always pictured myself perfect. I believe I am right in every situation, I know better, and everything has to be my way.

I thought I would hate admitting that I made mistakes this year but actually, I never felt so liberated in my life.

Maybe there is beauty in the breakdown. A seductive undertone in failure. Obviously, the way ( Read more... )

Affairs I have to get in order:

- study and take the lsats
- find an internship/job
- confirm plans for el salvador
- the grain project
- research

people hate you when you're changing

 
And I'm not going back into rags or in the hole
and our bruises are coming
but we will never fold

and i was your silver lining
as the story goes
i was your silver lining but now im gold
hooray hooray im your silver lining
hooray hooray but now im gold.

built a wall of books between us in our beds

but you can always figure out who you are ( Read more... )

nervous. anxious. tense. depressed.

I got so used to feeling all of these that I forgot how to be happy.

for the past year I became so entangled in them that I didn't remember how to sense them. I finally understood them these past two months. I recognized them:

nervous. anxious. tense. depressed.

I have always been safe. I say this while knocking on ( Read more... )

i know what I have to do now

first of all, I would like to apologize for being missing in action for these past weeks. I am still trying to adjust to my new home and my new neighborhood. Trust me, it's challenging. But after figuring out where the essential things and places are, I will soon be swinging back to things.

a real update is past due but no worries it will come.