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well, i should be sleeping, i want to be sleeping, but i cant. ive just been thinking about stuff tonight, mostly about fear. that quote, "the only thing to fear is fear itself" seems really suitable right now. i dont know, i just realized that i wish that i had the guts to live life the way that i really want to. you know? like go right up to that certain person and say exactly what you feel without having to worry about how they react. or go out and do exactly what you want to do without having to worry about all the consequences that await you afterwards. i dont know, it just seems to me that sometimes fear is holding us back, from what we should do, from what we all really want to be doing. maybe its just me, but i wish i wasnt so goddamn scared of EVERYTHING. that is why ive come to the conclusion that if i could have one wish, for anything in the world, that i would be selfish and wish for a time machine. that way, you could honestly live life with no regrets, and if things ended up horribly you could go back in time as if it never happened. well, thats pretty much whats been bothering me, hence my lack of sleeping. i dont know, i know things arent going to change, im a scaredy cat and destined to be one forever, but ill be hopeful about it. however, i really do hope that a time machine is invented, otherwise life is bound to be one hell of an akward mess composed of bottled up emotions.