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i'm never going to
so i'm in the worst mood ever right now. i hate college. i visited hc on sunday... loved it. visited bc today... loved it. i have no idea what to do. they are both such different schools and i cant decide. to make it worse, my parents decided to try and be helpful and get in the middle of things and mess everything up. my mom wants me to go to hc, so bad. she says its only a "vote" but by the way she looks at me and the things she says, i can tell she'll be disappointed if i go to bc. then my dad wants me to go to bc. you should have seen him today, he was so excited there. in the bookstore he was looking at all the bc gear he could wear, and checking out all the alumni stuff. when i came home on sunday and told him i liked hc he was just like oh... really? with kind of a you have got to be kidding me look on his face. so today i got in a huge fight with my mom, telling her that i just wanted her to be supportive either way and in typical deborah sweet fashion she flips out on me, throws an envelope with 500 dollars at me and says heres the deposit you decide where youre going to school, and then takes off in her car and disappears for 2 hours. thats cool. so now theyre all like you have to make a list of pros and cons and keep pressuring me to decide. they want to send in the money on monday and said that if i dont decide then theyre going to decide for me. way to go parents. so now its a perfectly good vacation evening, and i am sitting home by myself, miserable. i reeeeally just need to vent and nobody is calling me back, excellent. isn't life grand?