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he pulls off another priceless moment. It's funny how the biggest person in my life is someone I hate. Does that even make sense? But hate doesn't even compare to how I feel about him.
When people ask me what my biggest fear is, I'm always so tempted to say his name. But that would just bring too many questions, questions I hate answering. You just wish people would understand not to ask you certain things, to notice how uncomfortable you are. All you want to do is forget but you can't forget when people are constantly asking you whats wrong, what happened, why this & why that.
I just want to fucking forget he was a part of my life. Even before anything happened and he was one of my good friends.
And I did forget about him.. Until he pulls this stunt.
He calls me asking me why we never speak anymore. Why he can't 'hold me every second of the day.' Why I think he's not good enough for me. I don't know, I guess he was drunk? Or high.. or fucked up from something. He had to be.
He even started to cry. He cried! He destroys my life, and cries because he misses me?
WTF, mate?
I'm not even upset anymore, I'm just so angry I'm shaking.