I think there is something wrong with me. I was harassed by some Army recruiters while I was waiting for the bus. I'm considering their offer.

I had a dream involving my girlfriend from 2002. I think it was the most conforting dream i've ever had. She was sitting next to the lake at one of the shelters I used to live in. It was called maple wood. I was still verry young in the dream, like I was when I lived there. That lake used to be filled with snapping turtles and there was a ( Read more... )

Last night I went to a wedding reception with Christine and Jessica. It was entertaining. Christine got served and Jessica caught the bouquet. Now she has to mary the skinny drunk guy with the shiny white loafers. After the reception we went to barros, then to blockbuster where Jess and Christine rented The Secret Garden behind my back only to ( Read more... )

I took a nap after that last post and had a dream where I was going to the airport with some friends to get on my plane to visit my sister. It was Ian, Pam, Someone else(a girl, and then for some reason Matty was hanging out with us. Anyway, im the last one through the airport doors and everyone is running through the hallway. I stopped for a ( Read more... )

I don't get it. My moods are all over the place lately. One minute i'm excited about something then Im apathetic then I'm happy because of how overwhelmingly beautiful the world is then I start feeling small and alone in it. I think I just need some ice cream.

Ok...there was more dreaming last night. But first, the events which unfolded outside of sleepytime. Yesterday I just sat around a lot until Claire, Jen, and Jessica came to pick me up and take me shopping. We were at the AZ Mills mall for an hour or so before Marty showed up. He was holding a shopping bag when I first saw him. I said "Hey ( Read more... )

Here is what I dreamed about last night. Claire and I were driving around in northwest Cincinnati, OH. As we passed the pizzahut that my ex-girlfriend Jen Coletta worked at I could have swore I saw her walking in the parking lot in slow motion. So I had Claire turn around. As we pulled up I saw her wrestling with some guy just inside the ( Read more... )

I just had a nice relaxing time with my friend Patrick smoking a hooka and sipping mango nectar...that last entry was way too dramatic. My problem is that people I don't need attatch themselves to me and the people that I need are already attatched to someone else. Something huge is headed my way, I can't let this pass me by. I have to hold on.

Why do people depend on me? So what if I come off gentle or kind...it doesn't mean I am going to let people lean into me everytime they loose their footing. I am NOT a generous person...this is what makes my affections so valuable. Don't take it for granted. Call me a bad friend...better yet don't call me a friend at all. I extend a hug to my ( Read more... )

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