Five more days untill sunday

Im starting to look on the bright side of this....at least i think i am.

I want this to go right so what am i suposed to do? Do i just sit there and talk to her or am i suposed to do more than that?

I kinda dont understand how i am suposed to act....do i act fake or normal this is crazy im me for suggestions!

Yesterday my Grandpa called...

I found out that i have a fuckin sister! WHAT THE HELL!!!!?????

I dont like my brother HOW DO YOU KNOW IM A LIKE HER!!!???

Im so scared its not even funny! I dont know how to deal with this WhAT THE HELL!!!!

My one question is WHERE DID SHE COME FROM?!

Shes only 4 months younger than i am!

AND GET THIS! i have to ( Read more... )

Letting go of you ( Read more... )

Today me jesse and matt and uncle shawn are gunna go shopping! TO SPEND MONEY!!!!!!! I cant wait!!!!!!!!

Shawn came over yesterday and played video games for 3 hours! Him and Alicia are going to get an apartment down the street from us..I REALLY CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You guys have no idea how much happier i am!

Today im waiting for uncle shawn to call me and reading a magizine. I had a rough night last night i made my uncle cry....im sry...i didnt mean too. He told me he was like "please dont cry.i know you are" and then he said "because i am too".

Its so hard to let go of something youve had for a long time and you dont wanna let the memories go and you ( Read more... )

Today i went to Chruch wif Joshwa and i just broke down i couldnt stop thinkin bout my uncle shawn and how much hurt he put me through not being able to see him ever i love him alot and i pray for him but every time i do i cry so bad.I love my uncle shawn and i miss him so much i wish i could live wif him for ever i might just move in with him i ( Read more... )

Today was Chirstmas wif Uncle Shawn Alicia,Anut Tammy,Uncle Everton,GMA!,DAD,Mom,Jesse,David,Grandpa mike and Gma Vicki! wow Shawn's GirlyFriend is Pregnet!!!! yay another lil cousin i can tourment! heheh im so evil....

I havent seen my uncle in like 2 years and i huged him and i just sat there and cried i miss him so much you guys hes such an ( Read more... )

Today i feel alot better than last night...i cant wait till we go to Chirstmas Eve Party! wee so much fun! i cant wait toooo seeee my uncle Shawn YAY!

Another good thing bout tonight is that Santa is Coming and my dad said he was was like Santa got ran over by a truck...HE POPPED MY BUBBEL! I find that soo sad....**TEARS** oh well...NO PRESENTS FO ( Read more... )

Lauren....wow she totally cussed me out but not jeff no god forbid if she cussed jeff out it would be the end of her fuckin life....but oh jeff doesnt like her as much as he says he really thinks shes annoying and yeah hes right...she calls him nonstop i mean give the guy a chance to fuckin breath and then she fuckin freaks out if he doesnt answer ( Read more... )

2night sucks alot its soo boring right now....I bought Derek a Rotweiller Puppy for Chirstmas but he hasnt named it yet...idk what to name it..Gimme some ideas..Not preppy ones though please he'll kill me.

I really wish i could see shaun right now for chirstmas i really want to buy him a present i wanna see him unwrap one of my presents hehe i ( Read more... )