Alas, the relationship with my first love, my high school sweetheart, the man of my dreams, has come to it's end. I think I'm going to be sick. I have never felt this kind of pain, loss, emptiness. It's just too soon. And it just so happens that I don't have a shoulder to cry on.

I feel like I waste my days, one after another. I have a job, but I haven't started working yet so I sleep in really late, sit around the house in my pajamas, watching TV and eating anything I can find, which is bad since I have a goal of losing some weight so I can cox mens' rowing at UCF in the fall. Everyone else has a job so there's nobody to ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my sweetie's birthday. He loved his present. In case you didn't know, I got him a real 440 Stainless Steel Japanese sword. I probably should've asked his parents if I could give it to him but I didn't. Oh well ( Read more... )

I've been really, really mean to my boyfriend lately. Most of the time I don't mean to be. But after he told me "don't get too attached," my feelings were hurt. I guess I'm trying to make him hate me or break up with me or something while at the same time, I'm not getting "too attached" or am slowly detatching the bond we have, like when I slowly ( Read more... )

I have a problem ( Read more... )

Parents got me a new car ( Read more... )

What a bad week... I got wait-listed to UF. Better than getting denied but still it's emotionally painful and involves a lot of paper work when it comes to deadlines between two colleges. Maybe I should just go to UCF, I know my way around there and it is a highly underated school. I don't know what to do anymore.

I have a rash all over my legs and on parts of my arms, shoulders, and back. It's so gross. I think I'm allergic to cucarachas. I've seen them lurking here at night, those disgusting, six-legged BASTARDS!!! I really hope that this rash will go away by prom. I want to go to the beach though and I'm sure the sun and salt water (as well as shaving my ( Read more... )

Today was a medium-rare day. On the bad side: Mr. Worcester was really pissed off at sixth period, I had to stay after school to do my physics homework... I had to go to school, that's bad enough ( Read more... )

So many people have been talking about the prom alot lately and have been getting me really pumped for it but it is kind of a let down because prom isn't for another 4 weeks or so. I do have other things to look forward to, however. Senior Safari, the weekends, Spring Break... it's all good. What sucks is that I'm probably going to end up getting ( Read more... )