No escape 1/?
title: no escape
pairing: kyumin
Rating: nc-17
Genre: incest, angst, drama, romance
Warning: yaoi, smut
Summary: they started it even though they know it’s forbidden. But anything that is forbidden is exciting and much more treasured. How can they be able to stop themselves from loving each other when they think there’s no escape?
Part 1
nbsp; The first time he felt this odd feeling when he was playing with his younger brother the time their parents are away. Their parents are always on a business trip, if not, on an extended honeymoon, leaving the both of them in the care of their maids. Because of this, he developed a strong desire to fill the love their parents can’t give to his younger brother. He doesn’t need their love, he assumed, for he has Sungmin.
He doesn’t care if he won’t see their parents everyday as long as he sees Sungmin every minute. The sweet smile tuned up with a sweet voice was all he needs. Nothing and no one, except him.
And that is if he could have him in his arms.
“Hyung”
“su-sungmin?” his eyes widened. There’s no way in this world his younger brother would know his secret.
How?
He immediately gathered the scrambled clothings left on the marbled floor. He washed his hands as if it’s the most sinful object he had ever seen. He cursed nonstop. He didn’t know how Sungmin got there. He knows he locked the door. Now he felt disgusted and dirty. His brother, whom he loved so much, just saw him masturbating while moaning out his name. His had just ruined everything that is not yet ruined.
He could hear the faint sob from the hallway which made his world to turn upside down.
The hurried walks
The clashing of things.
All added up to the tensed situation he is into now. He knows the younger is in haste to walk away.
He needs to follow him.
nbsp; Kyuhyun began searching Sungmin in their mansion while ignoring the intriguing looks by their maids. His nerves just forgot how to calm every moment he opened an empty room. Just when he flop his body to the ground, his ears came in contact with faint but rigid sobs from the other room. He immediately stood up, all feeling giddy but afraid. He needs to fix everything before it’s too late.
nbsp; Maybe at the end he would just leave this house and Sungmin at the same time. His years of yearning to the other just ended up in a drastic emotion, no way on this earth he imagined things would turn out this way.
nbsp; The room was dark very in sync to their feelings right now. He suddenly felt the cold wind playing with his body. He hugged himself trying to squeeze whatever amount of heat his body could give to him, besides he should get use to that feeling. He would be alone in no time, that’s what his mind told him.
nbsp; “I’m sorry,” He broke down into a mix of choke and wail. He can’t contain the sadness he is feeling at this moment after realizing the impact of what he did. There he saw Sungmin, bracing his self, hugging his body like there’s no tomorrow- his form is just someone who feels violated.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry,” he chanted as if saying those words would erase the images of him masturbating in his younger brother’s mind. He just took the other’s innocence just because of his sinful love.
Sinful love. What a pity.
He hugged the smaller man. He closed his eyes ready to receive any blow or curse but the other remained still.
“Sungmin please talk. Please. I wanna hear you even just for this time. Hate me all you want and I’m going to receive it.” His words kind of killed him there right on his vulnerable spot. No matter how much he wanted Sungmin to get mad at him, part of him still hoped that the other would just forgive him.
He felt the other looked at him with eyes full of fear and confusion.
“Hyung please explain. I- I don’t know what’s ...Hyung,” Sungmin just let his self drowned on his emotions because he can’t possibly say things the way he wanted it to be. The feelings he’s having are so heavy that it drained him all at once. He needs something to hold on to and he found Kyuhyun’s shirt to be of great help. Thoughts about what he saw earlier circulated on his mind freely making him dizzy and perplexed. By any means, does his hyung has romantic feelings over him or maybe...
Just maybe it’s more than that.
His Hyung. His most loved hyung, lusted over him.
The weather seems it wanted to sympathize with them or maybe mock their funny situation. As if on cue, the clouds darkened which signals a heavy rain would fall anytime. Their bodies are pressed together silently sharing the heat it could offer but the cold wind from the outside made their warm bodies to shiver. But for Kyuhyun the thought of confessing his love to Sungmin is much colder than the wind and much more flaming than the fire. No amount of words could describe the intense emotions swirling in his whole body and mind.
Kyuhyun closed his eyes. Calming his whole self is the only thing he could do for now. He parted his lips ready to say things he never once practiced in his entire life but his voice seems to betray him. He closed it again in attempt to gather more strength. He needs to say something before Sungmin could start asking things he didn’t want to hear. He’s a coward after all.
“Min I love you.” He breathed out almost failing to be heard but since they’re trapped with each other those words successfully find its way to Sungmin’s ears, making the other gasp.
Those four words are just simple words only if they were not brothers. And only if Sungmin loves him back.
Only ifs...the words he dreaded to hear. The forbidden words in every relationship because it points out every failure of the people involved in it; it voices out every disappointment one has to the other. But then again only ifs are the only best words that fit to them for now.
He kissed Sungmin’s lips fully, pouring out all the bottled emotions and feelings that he had kept for only God knows how long. He wants to explain things further but the rapid beating of his heart refrained him from speaking more. Or maybe he chose to not to speak for things are complicatedly worse and he didn’t want to add remorse to it. He had fallen in love to someone who on all people is his brother in which he know he shouldn’t.
There’s no turning back. He had gone this far and the only thing he is planning right now.
Is to escape.
If that is possible.
nbsp; He kicked the small stones along the sidewalk while fixing his sweater that served as his little warmer for that day. The sun is shining brightly on him making him to hide from its happiness. He isn’t happy and never would be. The moment he did that bold action last night he already knows that things would be different and being away from changes is the least option he has at hand. But he must not forget that change is the only constant thing here on earth. And escaping is not one of the ways of dealing it.
nbsp; Kyuhyun stopped walking after seeing the flashing lights of the bright neon orange from one cheap motel. He cringed at the form of the building but he rather stay in a one dilapidated building rather staying in house full of pretension and guilt feelings. But neither of those feelings had tainted his love for Sungmin. He is sure it’s not lust but love. He just hopes that’s also how Sungmin sees it but he immediately dismissed that thought after he remembered the scared Sungmin in his mind.
“Good morning sir.”
is troubled train of thoughts were interrupted by the fat lady in front of him. After some moments of transactions and exchange of money finally he had forced himself to settle down in this very uncomfortable surrounding. A surrounding where there is no Sungmin, where he felt he had escaped.
nbsp; Sungmin tried to sleep his worries out but it seems that they were there the moment those luscious and plump lips were pressed on to his. They never left him and almost haunting him every second he tried to sleep. Never in his entire life that he felt betrayed by his senses. How can he not notice the hidden feelings of his brothers to him? He laughed; a laugh full of regrets and sadness.
nbsp; He brought his hands to feel his lips. The warmth is there even though those lips had left his m-shaped ones a night ago. He closed his eyes but not to grab some piece of rest but to recover back the emotions he had back there in that room, to not to forget that tingling sensation he felt when he was kissed. He knows it’s wrong but it never felt bad. It felt right instead.
He love his hyung but does it mean the other way around?
He is always there to hear his problems when no one is there to hear them out.
He was his support when he is losing his grip.
He was his everything when he has nothing.
He raked his hair out of frustration, confusion and anger.
He closed his eyes again for the umpteenth time not knowing how to understand this burning feeling he has inside. It should be simple as counting birds in a cage but this time he is counting birds at the sky, too bad that’s too many; too hard to count just like his dilemma right now, too hard to fathom. Too deep and too complicated for a fifteen-year-old boy
But he needs to find a way out; he needs something to guide him out off the complicated world.
He needs to escape. If that’s what his heart truly wants.
“Hello Hyukjae. Pick me up. Let’s go to your bar. I’m your friend right? No need for an I.D,” he said with a grinning face. He never did this before but he heard that there is something in this world that would help you forget for once. And that this thing would lead you to a temporary bittersweet escape.
The taste of the liquor seems inviting even more inviting than the taste of his lips, or so he thought.
He stood up with all hopes high that for this night, he could forget him.
“Just for this night, let me forget you hyung...”
Part 2 : Here
a/n: this is crap .. but I just wanted this to let out . it’s really killing me for a week. Aegyoooo...
oh wait SPY is out bwahahahhaJ LET’S SPAZZ TOGETHER:0
pairing: kyumin
Rating: nc-17
Genre: incest, angst, drama, romance
Warning: yaoi, smut
Summary: they started it even though they know it’s forbidden. But anything that is forbidden is exciting and much more treasured. How can they be able to stop themselves from loving each other when they think there’s no escape?
Part 1
nbsp; The first time he felt this odd feeling when he was playing with his younger brother the time their parents are away. Their parents are always on a business trip, if not, on an extended honeymoon, leaving the both of them in the care of their maids. Because of this, he developed a strong desire to fill the love their parents can’t give to his younger brother. He doesn’t need their love, he assumed, for he has Sungmin.
He doesn’t care if he won’t see their parents everyday as long as he sees Sungmin every minute. The sweet smile tuned up with a sweet voice was all he needs. Nothing and no one, except him.
And that is if he could have him in his arms.
“Hyung”
“su-sungmin?” his eyes widened. There’s no way in this world his younger brother would know his secret.
How?
He immediately gathered the scrambled clothings left on the marbled floor. He washed his hands as if it’s the most sinful object he had ever seen. He cursed nonstop. He didn’t know how Sungmin got there. He knows he locked the door. Now he felt disgusted and dirty. His brother, whom he loved so much, just saw him masturbating while moaning out his name. His had just ruined everything that is not yet ruined.
He could hear the faint sob from the hallway which made his world to turn upside down.
The hurried walks
The clashing of things.
All added up to the tensed situation he is into now. He knows the younger is in haste to walk away.
He needs to follow him.
nbsp; Kyuhyun began searching Sungmin in their mansion while ignoring the intriguing looks by their maids. His nerves just forgot how to calm every moment he opened an empty room. Just when he flop his body to the ground, his ears came in contact with faint but rigid sobs from the other room. He immediately stood up, all feeling giddy but afraid. He needs to fix everything before it’s too late.
nbsp; Maybe at the end he would just leave this house and Sungmin at the same time. His years of yearning to the other just ended up in a drastic emotion, no way on this earth he imagined things would turn out this way.
nbsp; The room was dark very in sync to their feelings right now. He suddenly felt the cold wind playing with his body. He hugged himself trying to squeeze whatever amount of heat his body could give to him, besides he should get use to that feeling. He would be alone in no time, that’s what his mind told him.
nbsp; “I’m sorry,” He broke down into a mix of choke and wail. He can’t contain the sadness he is feeling at this moment after realizing the impact of what he did. There he saw Sungmin, bracing his self, hugging his body like there’s no tomorrow- his form is just someone who feels violated.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry,” he chanted as if saying those words would erase the images of him masturbating in his younger brother’s mind. He just took the other’s innocence just because of his sinful love.
Sinful love. What a pity.
He hugged the smaller man. He closed his eyes ready to receive any blow or curse but the other remained still.
“Sungmin please talk. Please. I wanna hear you even just for this time. Hate me all you want and I’m going to receive it.” His words kind of killed him there right on his vulnerable spot. No matter how much he wanted Sungmin to get mad at him, part of him still hoped that the other would just forgive him.
He felt the other looked at him with eyes full of fear and confusion.
“Hyung please explain. I- I don’t know what’s ...Hyung,” Sungmin just let his self drowned on his emotions because he can’t possibly say things the way he wanted it to be. The feelings he’s having are so heavy that it drained him all at once. He needs something to hold on to and he found Kyuhyun’s shirt to be of great help. Thoughts about what he saw earlier circulated on his mind freely making him dizzy and perplexed. By any means, does his hyung has romantic feelings over him or maybe...
Just maybe it’s more than that.
His Hyung. His most loved hyung, lusted over him.
The weather seems it wanted to sympathize with them or maybe mock their funny situation. As if on cue, the clouds darkened which signals a heavy rain would fall anytime. Their bodies are pressed together silently sharing the heat it could offer but the cold wind from the outside made their warm bodies to shiver. But for Kyuhyun the thought of confessing his love to Sungmin is much colder than the wind and much more flaming than the fire. No amount of words could describe the intense emotions swirling in his whole body and mind.
Kyuhyun closed his eyes. Calming his whole self is the only thing he could do for now. He parted his lips ready to say things he never once practiced in his entire life but his voice seems to betray him. He closed it again in attempt to gather more strength. He needs to say something before Sungmin could start asking things he didn’t want to hear. He’s a coward after all.
“Min I love you.” He breathed out almost failing to be heard but since they’re trapped with each other those words successfully find its way to Sungmin’s ears, making the other gasp.
Those four words are just simple words only if they were not brothers. And only if Sungmin loves him back.
Only ifs...the words he dreaded to hear. The forbidden words in every relationship because it points out every failure of the people involved in it; it voices out every disappointment one has to the other. But then again only ifs are the only best words that fit to them for now.
He kissed Sungmin’s lips fully, pouring out all the bottled emotions and feelings that he had kept for only God knows how long. He wants to explain things further but the rapid beating of his heart refrained him from speaking more. Or maybe he chose to not to speak for things are complicatedly worse and he didn’t want to add remorse to it. He had fallen in love to someone who on all people is his brother in which he know he shouldn’t.
There’s no turning back. He had gone this far and the only thing he is planning right now.
Is to escape.
If that is possible.
nbsp; He kicked the small stones along the sidewalk while fixing his sweater that served as his little warmer for that day. The sun is shining brightly on him making him to hide from its happiness. He isn’t happy and never would be. The moment he did that bold action last night he already knows that things would be different and being away from changes is the least option he has at hand. But he must not forget that change is the only constant thing here on earth. And escaping is not one of the ways of dealing it.
nbsp; Kyuhyun stopped walking after seeing the flashing lights of the bright neon orange from one cheap motel. He cringed at the form of the building but he rather stay in a one dilapidated building rather staying in house full of pretension and guilt feelings. But neither of those feelings had tainted his love for Sungmin. He is sure it’s not lust but love. He just hopes that’s also how Sungmin sees it but he immediately dismissed that thought after he remembered the scared Sungmin in his mind.
“Good morning sir.”
is troubled train of thoughts were interrupted by the fat lady in front of him. After some moments of transactions and exchange of money finally he had forced himself to settle down in this very uncomfortable surrounding. A surrounding where there is no Sungmin, where he felt he had escaped.
nbsp; Sungmin tried to sleep his worries out but it seems that they were there the moment those luscious and plump lips were pressed on to his. They never left him and almost haunting him every second he tried to sleep. Never in his entire life that he felt betrayed by his senses. How can he not notice the hidden feelings of his brothers to him? He laughed; a laugh full of regrets and sadness.
nbsp; He brought his hands to feel his lips. The warmth is there even though those lips had left his m-shaped ones a night ago. He closed his eyes but not to grab some piece of rest but to recover back the emotions he had back there in that room, to not to forget that tingling sensation he felt when he was kissed. He knows it’s wrong but it never felt bad. It felt right instead.
He love his hyung but does it mean the other way around?
He is always there to hear his problems when no one is there to hear them out.
He was his support when he is losing his grip.
He was his everything when he has nothing.
He raked his hair out of frustration, confusion and anger.
He closed his eyes again for the umpteenth time not knowing how to understand this burning feeling he has inside. It should be simple as counting birds in a cage but this time he is counting birds at the sky, too bad that’s too many; too hard to count just like his dilemma right now, too hard to fathom. Too deep and too complicated for a fifteen-year-old boy
But he needs to find a way out; he needs something to guide him out off the complicated world.
He needs to escape. If that’s what his heart truly wants.
“Hello Hyukjae. Pick me up. Let’s go to your bar. I’m your friend right? No need for an I.D,” he said with a grinning face. He never did this before but he heard that there is something in this world that would help you forget for once. And that this thing would lead you to a temporary bittersweet escape.
The taste of the liquor seems inviting even more inviting than the taste of his lips, or so he thought.
He stood up with all hopes high that for this night, he could forget him.
“Just for this night, let me forget you hyung...”
Part 2 : Here
a/n: this is crap .. but I just wanted this to let out . it’s really killing me for a week. Aegyoooo...
oh wait SPY is out bwahahahhaJ LET’S SPAZZ TOGETHER:0