Elements of an Ill-Fated Romance Chapter Two: Cold Comfort
Elements of an Ill-Fated Romance
Playlsit: For A Reason by: Zhane {If you can find it I suggest playing it while reading... it's the song that inspired this chapter.}
Chapter Two: Cold Comfort
Everything happens for a reason...
And he knows he shouldn't be there. He really shouldn't ...because he's not really there for her. He's there for Elena. He's there because Elena couldn't be… because she asked him to find her... but the fact remains he is here… and because he's here he's forced to see what he has done. It's been a long time since he's stopped to look back at the damage that he's created... the pain that he's truly inflicted upon others and for just a second he finds himself hating Elena... for what she's done... for what she's made him see.
And he can't help but see... but to stop, and take notice...
He doesn't try to approach her... there's nothing he could say. He can't offer comforting words; he wouldn't try to apologize for what his actions... his demands... have cost her. Because it wouldn't be enough...
Besides sincerity is not something he could pull off. And it's not what she needs… or even wants.
Because what she's looking for... what she's searching for he could never provide.
She's looking for absolution… Something he's never been interested in.
She's looking for forgiveness... A concept that has become foreign to him.
She's looking for a reason… Which he may never have to give.
Nothing that he could ever possibly offer would be enough.
And it's not as if he's become an expert on her needs... her wants... he barely knows her. But he knows grief.
And she is grieving.
Silently...desperately... achingly...
...with each breath...
...each beat of her heart...
It's almost tangible.
Yes he knows grief.
So he remains where he is. Leaning against the hood of his car, feeling the last rays of the setting sun as the chill of a fading winter approaches. Silently watching from the outskirts of the burial grounds because that's as close as he dares to venture. And he's not sure what keeps him away. It's not in his nature to be courteous. He hasn't had respect for boundaries in over a century... but here... today... in this moment he respects hers.
No... there is absolutely nothing that he can offer her... nothing but this... this time... this moment where he won't trespass...
...he won't overstep.
…he won't intrude.
He may have come for Elena... but he stays for her.
It's as close to comfort that he may ever be capable of.
No...it's not enough...
...but it will do.
Everything happens for a reason...
they say...