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Okey woah, why does my vacation seem to be sucking ass soo much?? Well, first of all let me go threw what happened then I shall vent some more because ima loser like that.
Friday- I went over to amandas house. And to my suprise Brandon aka 25 cent was there. Umm...we had a little road trip to Belchertown to pick up amanada bf. Them was some fun times!! It got my mind off of things for awhile. It was funny. "no turn around now" Then we all got back to her grams house and we all tried to fight in her room. It ended up being her and jamie on the floor. and me and brandon on her two beds which we pushed together. And we watched Hangmans Curse. It was funny because brandon kept on trying to cuddle with me then he wouldnt..Also i had to pee like fifteen times during the movie it wasgreat.
Saturday- We all opened our presents and we went like everywhere me and amanda. We chillaxed at her grams house for awhile then we ate and by the end of the night we were just talking in her room. Then i had to go because my bro was in the hospital bc he was sick with the flu. So i came home and talked to ppl for a lil bit while i waited for ppl to get their act together. Then, i went there and i left bc i felt sick and came home and took a shower and fell asleep
Sunday- Woke up, couldnt hang out with neone until like 300..soo ithought i was going to be about to hang out with timmy today but nooooo..that didnt work out he said he couldnt bc his mom was being a bitch. So yeah, thats outta hte question. I still have to wait until 300 to hang out im going over jens house for a lil i dont really feel like doing nething today im in a bad mood. And i just kinda want to lounge around but if i have to hang out with ppl i will.
Okey, i was wicked pissed because i didnt know i still had a crush on brandon but i do : / His the ghetto homie. Lol. It was funny bc amanda and me were like ripping up her grams yard with her truck. it was funny doing wicked sharp turns and dougnuts.! that girl is friggin awesome and im soo glad i started hanging out with her again. But, i just wanted to be help sunday night because i felt alone and i had gotten let down by brian twice ,but he was sitting there teasing me and all that then his like maybe if you were a few years older i would date you or something will happen. Yeah okey thats bullshit. Yeah but whatever shit happened between me and him last august so its ended there. I bet! hahah i hope that its over. I really do.
Um, im soo dissappointed about today its soo messed up how people could let me down soo much. Im sick of getting let down by everyone i just want to be able to feel like...i dont know wat im talking about ne more.
Right now! I feel like shit. I mean school year sucks. This vacation is no better then last years. I mean last year me and bryan had our little thing. I just wish that something would happen something big, something good. I wish that i could forget about those memories i was soo happy then and im not going to be happy again. Or so i think. My energy and my emotions are gone. I have nothing left. I feel like shit after the last couple days.
but thats it i dont feel like writing more..
katie