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Food, work, pokemon.
I haven't logged into wow for more than 10 minutes in the last 4 days. I just got discouraged. See, i wanted a new chest piece, so I worked really hard. I got the chest piece, and fell into a rut of just doing dailies. The dailies are just 'generally good' for my character, so it's actually discouraging to do them. Sorta like work.
I was e-mail pen-paling with a chick at the tech center. I was saying how I enjoy the night shift because it's quiet and peaceful. I was thinking of the darkness and the cool night air. She pointed out that she would lose productivity because there would be no one around to check up on her. She was right. I lose productivity because there is no one to check up on me. I'm low stress for the same reason. I prefer low stress at a loss of productivity, but it's an interesting trade off. Another thing she pointed out was lost productivity due to loss of purpose. Since there is no one checking on me, there is no pressure of deadline. There is also no sense of how important a task might be. The result is that I don't rush to accomplish anything.
I haven't been sleeping well. Normally I'd play Wow so i wouldn't notice. This week I've been d discouraged so I haven't played Wow. This week the reutine has been: Come home, log on, log off, check facebook, watch mythbusters/family guy/castle off the dvr. Attempt to go to bed at 5:00am. Then I toss and turn, and give up. I go get my gameboy and play pokemon.
I wonder if I'm not lacking purpose in life? I have free time, but I'm spending it on mindless unproductive hobbies instead of actual fun things. It kinda feels like I'm not spending any time on myself, although that isn't true.