and i'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
but i've got to get a move on with my life
its time to be a big girl now
and big girls don't cry

i guess i'm just Beautifully Broken

I'm not particularly concerned with whether or not you like me, because I live to like you and... and I can't like you anymore. So... so when you're feeling real ( Read more... )

12:25 AM on may 13th, 2007--i realized i'm in love, yet i told her that she should go for it and i left them to be alone.

yet another guy wanted sex...and once again i said no.

life as we know it is becominging entirely too predictable.

My biggest fear was september when he had to go
A few cards and letters and one long distance call
We drifted away like the leaves in the fall
But year after year I come back to this place
Just to remember the taste
Of strawberry wine and seventeen
The hot july moon saw e v e r y t h i n g
My first taste of love oh bittersweet
Green on the vine
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it's been officially proven to me

all guys are the same

that's a shame

after realizing that i have just about a month left of high school, and only two more water polo games left, it's time to really think all the things i've accomplished. since freshman year i've grown so damn much. i'm really proud with the girl i've become when it comes down to it, to be quite honest. i've given up a lot for different people and ( Read more... )

69 truths
1. single or taken→ taken
2. zodiac sign→ Virgo
4. male or female→ i'm a female
6. elementary → Mt. Greenwood
7. middle → Morgan Park
8. high → Morgan Park
9. eye color → hazel
10. hair color → medium brown
15. are you health freak → some days
16. height → 5'8"
17. do you love someone → i love a lot of people
18. do you like yourself → how could you ( Read more... )

it's officially fourth quarter senior year. that shit is crazy. things have made me thing lately and i realized that i do so many things in my life to please other people. i work my ass off to get good grades when i go days with out any rest. i practice my ass off for a team that doesn't even try. i try to be as nice to people as i can just because ( Read more... )

This senior year gets more and more interesting each and every day. Spring break is boring, but it's relaxing. I'm ready for school to be back in session and I can just get it over with. People are surprising me each day and I'm starting to see that my decisions tend to be poor ones, but as I was told the other day, in a few months I'll be able to ( Read more... )

being in love is so damn difficult and i'm realizing that just because you love someone, that doesn't mean they'll love you back. i wish things were different but i have 70 days left of highschool and i don't know how i feel about that. things are starting to get wierd and my lifes going to change very quickly so all i can do is close my eyes, take ( Read more... )

each and every day i fight for happiniess. i fight for my freedom and i sure as hell fight for that love. and every day i get a new dickhead thinking he can use me for sex and that i'm an idiot and wont find out that he's trying to get wtih one of my best friends on the polo team too. fucking shame. i'm out. happiness is 77 days away