SECOND PLACE
FOR JUNIOR VARSITY
AND STILL 
NOT MY BEST.
HELLZ YEAH BABY!<3

it seems like just yesterday that i was graduating from middle school. each week of school this year had gone by so enitrely fast that at the end of each week i wonder where it went and what i did with myself. infact, i said that to alex wig today. i was like, 911 was FIVE years ago?? no. thats absurd! what have we been doing with our lives?? oh ( Read more... )

"And we fell in love to music. We were just kids. We didn't have time to be sorry for what we did. And I said, "hey boy, whatya cryin for? It'll be okay in the end. And if this life doesn't give you the love you expect, there's aways the next."

-Anna Nalick,
Soldier

What is about you 
that always seems 
to brighten my day?
Part of me is anxious. 
Wants this.
The other part, 
the bigger of the two, 
is scared to death.
& this feeling is new to me.
This feeling of unsureness.
[yes, I made that up]
Maybe that's what scares me.
I know I don't want to break anymore hearts. 
Especially your's.
& why is that??
What is it about you?
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I feel so productive today.
& it feels damn good.
I've been in this responsible phase for a couple days.
It's weird. It's not like me.
Sadly, it will pass.
But I like it right so much...
[please stay...]

Taylor came to my house at like 530 in the morning 
Just to take me to dive practice at 6. 
I was like holy crap.
I didnt ask him to.
I actually discouraged ( Read more... )

*just a few things to say to/about different people...

1. Right now, I just don't know what to think of you. Last night, was... akward. I could tell you were waiting for it. I didn't want to be a snot but you didn't get the point anyway. You never seem to get it. Can't you see it? There's nothing here for you. I'm sorry...

2. There's nothing more to ( Read more... )

Beanhead088 [11:00 PM]:  do you think its too late to wish upon that shooting star?
Beanhead088 [11:00 PM]:  cuz i never wished
TheFunnyGuy8989 [11:00 PM]:  no
TheFunnyGuy8989 [11:00 PM]:  why whats your wish
Beanhead088 [11:00 PM]:  im not sure yet
Beanhead088 [11:00 PM]:  im trying to think of a good one
TheFunnyGuy8989 [11:00 PM]:  lol
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today it hit me.
hit me like a bus.
d e a d  o n.

all i had hoped for and dreamed of was never in reach.
my expectations were set too high.

i fucked up.

i thought i had one more chance to redeem myself.
prove i was worth something.
i know now that i was dreaming.
it was just a dream.
just a fucking dream.

sadly, this is the only way i will learn.
i ( Read more... )

Do You Ever Feel...

...you could fool the world?

i do.
& I think I could.
I'd be damn good at it.
Just be someone else for a day.
Maybe someone brave, heroic, adventerous.
Or someone wild, rebellious, and sassy?
Someone. Anyone. Just. Not. Me.

I hate this feeling i have inside.
i just dont know what to do with myself.
i need an escape.
i am going to lose my ( Read more... )

Mixed feeling have caught the best of me again.
Yes, it's the Boy Factor. But isn't it always?
Quick run-through:
     Nick:
          date with him last night. 
          dont like him
          he tried to cuddle with me
          i played dumb
          this boy just doesn't get it
          i will be breaking the truth to him here real soon
     Zach R:
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