Sorry about the length about chorus Christmas On The Coast
So do you miss being up there? NO! No I say! I don’t ... well... I don’t... I mean sure the show looked AMAZING it was fantastic. Everyone in there is so cool. Mrs. Pote got my NAME correct. And they did not sing "welcome welcome to a Pensacola Christmas" THANK YOU GOD! But no I don’t want to go back... I don’t... Imp not ready... plus The ONE thing that I really and truly regretted about leaving chorus and the one thing that was going to keep me in... Well I started wondering if they were worth it and as you can see it turned out to be no. I did not want to spend my life being controlled by the potes just so I could see and be close to them... However tonight reminded me of why I loved them... tonight showed me I do miss them... I did not think that it was going to be this hard to leave it and them behind... What ever happened to the thought of mine that once I got out of chorus everything would be easier and I wouldn’t miss it at all... Well you know what maybe the only thing I am missing is missing someone else to love. Maybe I am looking for someone like them someone who can make me smile whenever I see them, someone who can make me laugh whenever they’re around, Maybe I am looking all around for them... and that is what hurts so much and is so hard to leave behind... THEM... WHY it is only one person... one person who however much I liked them and they knew had no feelings toward me nor could they... the only thing I asked of them they gave... they gave it freely and gladly... and what do I do? I RUN! I run like the chicken I am (NO ONE comment on whether I am or am not a Chicken) what am I afraid of? being hurt knowing they will never love me like I love them... and what is it now I am afraid of never knowing what will happen... afraid of loosing something I never had... Am I afraid that without them there is no ... me? I don’t know... tonight I would have given anything for five minutes of being back in chorus with them. JUST 5 MIN and I would have given the world... Ashleigh You asked if I am a stalker or stated it both. Here is the truth I want to be in love I want to feel like I feel around them(person spoke of above) and I try to find out things about people so that I can get to know them more and be able to get closer to them... am I a stalker of peoples?... to an extent... but not of who you think I am... but there is no point in my obsession... it only leads to the same despair of knowing it is a one way street and our roads will never meet.
DO you know what its like to be in love with you? To have my heart still love you when my mind knows its not true do you know what its like to look into your eyes and to see what I know you don’t see in mine though I pray that you'll love me the whole night through...
DO you know what its like to be in love with you? To have my heart still love you when my mind knows its not true do you know what its like to look into your eyes and to see what I know you don’t see in mine though I pray that you'll love me the whole night through...