my dream last nite was so intense. it felt sooo extremely real. just the conversation we had, and the way he held me and then kissed me. all too real and familiar. i actually missed dan today. wow. never thought i would say that again. like not all day. just briefly. ::sigh:: ben goes to me...so wheres jp. and i was like huh? even tho i ( Read more... )

ha i just re-read parts of "hes just not that into you". its so fucking true. its a good reminder of that hes an asshole. haha..."busy"= asshole! ha. i love it. perfect! i just hope i dont do anything stupid like text or call him tomorrow nite when im at the girls house. speaking of which i need to get alcohol. ah! i need to be 21 asap! ( Read more... )

wow. fuckin tired. started lifting today. balls. ymca called me...wanted to know if i want to teach swim lessons. cool. sharon called me back. maybe i can work like sundays or something for her. i lvoe that pool haha. umm..wow tired. still no word from jim. texted ryan today. he wants to hang out this weekend. maybe ill invited him to ( Read more... )

yup he hasnt called. no surprise. asshole. i just wish i could stop thinking about him.

well yeah. this weekend ended up being quite interestings ( Read more... )

ok so whatever. im done worrying. like. thats just how he is. hes not a phone person and is just chill. whatever we'll see i suppose. paiges grad party was fun! bbq and a keg! sweet. chilled on their front porch and just had a fuckin awesome time. jim did end up coming. he actually called me around 6 and asked what i was doin and i was just ( Read more... )

so first...swimmin is kicking me ass!!! so hard!! fucking stroke set today! r u kidding me i swim fucking free!!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!! im sooo tired!! i called jim after practice today. i wasnt going to but i figured HEY WHY NOT! whatever. he didnt call back. this sucks. i really like him. im tired of this bull shit. i swear to god..nothing EVER ( Read more... )

so. omg. i started swimming today. tim is a fucking asshole. probably punishing me for drinking in front of him. ha. whatever. anyways. fucking 6 400's for time today! WHAT THE FUCK!! seriously. a test set on my first day back. soo gay. sooo tired. it was awful. but i survived. barely? im gonna ask him about pfeiffer. soooooooooooo i went to ( Read more... )

omg so i just basically spent my day drinkin with tim! omg it was awesome. i had to volunteer at this stupid gold tournament...i thought it was gonna be gay. at first it was. but i was all cute and golf/pretty polo like haha. i was cute. but there were like 3 kegs. haha best idea ever putting marcus and focker on the kegs!!!!!!!!! got wasted ( Read more... )

hmmm summers def off to a slow start. eh...my room is a bottomless pit. my moms making me clean out EVERYTHING! ah! at least im gonna get new clothes outta the deal. i got rid of soo many old ones. def. ready for a new wardrobe haha. hung out with alicia tonite. got some icy cream. it was fun. goood to catch up. supposed to go out with jim ( Read more... )