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Protect you for Always Chapter 3 and Epilogue

Oct 05, 2011 17:14

Title: Protect You For Always Chapter 3 - Never Yours
Characters: Skyfire/Skywarp, Skyfire/Starscream
Description: Skywarp has a nasty crash and finds himself heavily damaged in the middle of nowhere. Skyfire comes to his rescue, if you call being tied up rescued. Skywarp is carefully cared for and repaired by a very gentle giant, but what's the ( Read more... )

starscream, skyfire, skywarp, creepy

Comments 22

white_aster October 7 2011, 03:16:56 UTC

Oh man. Creepy and hurty for all involved, and so very, very emotional. The blind Skywarp POV worked really well, for which I take my hat off to you, as that's tough to do!

swindleslog October 7 2011, 21:32:08 UTC

Yeah, no one really got out of this unscathed. I don't think there was any way to end that happily ever after.

Blind Skywarp was fun, and different to write. Limiting what you can describe with is a pretty fun exercise.

spacehussy October 12 2011, 09:10:02 UTC

Omg I'm sorry this took so long, it's been a busy week and I only just got a chance to read it tonight.

Just as I'm starting to read this update and thinking "there's no way it can get any creepier, right?" you manage to not only surprise me, but make my jaw literally drop. And then I shuddered a lot. *STILL SHUDDERING*

Holy. Fucking. Shit. I honestly didn't see that coming. That Skyfire was legitimately ill was the only thing that didn't come as a surprise to me (I generally do love the idea that being in the ice for so long did damage him, giant alien robot or no) but to discover how not delusional he was this whole time? I repeat: holy shit.

fuckkkkkkk I can't get over it. He knew it was Skywarp the whole time. How desperately he clung to this thin fantasy, even going so far as to paint Skywarp and- kfjhgkjfhs I CAN'T GET OVER THAT HE PICKED SKYWARP SPECIFICALLY ( ... )

swindleslog October 13 2011, 02:30:08 UTC

I am so, so pleased that the whole "Skyfire fucking knows was such a surprise! Ditto the paint- Marysueofyay got to doing that before me, so I was worried it would lose some punch.

The frost damage thing just made sense to me- sure, TFs can go through some serious shit, but like anything else, only for so long. You wouldn't leave your computer in the cold for weeks- millenia in ice must have been absolute shit on poor Skyfire's head. All it would take would be one little trickle of water...

it's kind of heartbreaking that he lets Skyfire go and even instructs him to get help.

Starscream seemed so sad in the episode Skyfire pops up in, and its one of the few times he genuinely seems remorseful as a character. A lot of people use that in fics, and I figure its for good reason. Skyfire is a piece of his younger, happier days- a friend, and a vessel to the past. Seeing him now must be a bitter thing for him, but knowing why and how Skyfire got all fucked up would be a pretty heavy thing to deal with.

I CAN'T GET OVER THAT HE PICKED ( ... )

spacehussy October 13 2011, 02:43:18 UTC

>After all, if no one had found out, they'd have had all the time in the world.

( ... )

Random!Anon from kinkmeme anonymous October 13 2011, 06:43:11 UTC

Wow, first ASHWM and now this - you are awesome at horror stuff.

Like most commenters, Skyfire being aware the whole/most of the time that it was Skywarp took me totally by surprise, as did the fact that Skyfire had physical damage rather than mental illness.

Like ASHWM, this is one of those stories where you pretty much feel sorry for everyone by the end - Skyfire for harboring his delusions and then having them torn away, Starscream having to witness it and try to clean up after it, and of course Skywarp. I also feel bad for Skywarp being sworn to secrecy about such a traumatizing thing that happened to him - though he can talk to TC about it, I guess, and the Decepticons don't exactly have group therapy sessions where he can let it all out in a caring and supportive environment.

Re: Random!Anon from kinkmeme swindleslog October 14 2011, 05:50:10 UTC

as did the fact that Skyfire had physical damage rather than mental illness.

Well, brain damage is a physically caused mental illness, correct? Robot equivalent, I suppose. Well, no, but you get the idea.

I doubt Skywarp is going to go cry to anyone. That's not how big tough soldiers deal. He'll bitch loudly, and probably be very quiet when he's alone. TC will be there for him when he's ready.

Don't know how he'll deal with seeing Skyfire on the battle field though.

anonymous December 10 2011, 12:59:29 UTC

...I relate to skyfire, too much, getting told off by Starscream (who I normally relate to) made me get really close to tears, as I understood both perspectives...

I don't see skyfire as creepy per-se, but pity him...

For some reason, I figured he was repainted, and also thought skyfire knew starscream wasn't his captive, but didn't expect him to have chosen him...

Well done, thanks to you, I can see a side of my TFA shockwave I'm creeped out by, and now wish someone would do a gigantic show accurate Skyfire too

swindleslog December 12 2011, 21:40:03 UTC

Thank you for letting me know how emotionally affecting you found my story. That's always a joy to hear, as is that you as a reader feel you can understand the characters enough to relate and have empathy with them.

I did find Skyfire was behaving creepily in this, mostly because he had it planned, but he was ill. Its still a disturbing idea, but it does take the blame from him a little- it was not something he would be okay with if he were in his right mind. He's just crushinly alone and does not want to be.

A gigantic show accurate Skyfire too

Wouldn't mind having one of those myself.

anonymous February 26 2012, 20:40:56 UTC

I had had no idea until today that this one was completed. I'm glad I took the time to look. I was one of those who commented on the 2nd section ( ... )

swindleslog September 11 2012, 06:28:59 UTC

Oh snap! I'm so sorry, this is the first I'd seen this comment. :( Thank you for taking the time to do so, and for being in depth about it too, I do appreciate it.

I always figured being in ice that long would screw up something inside of Skyfire. TFs are living things, and that was some extreme conditions. Extreme conditions, and for a long, long time. Made sense to me. And it gave some reason and motivation to the fic- prisoner taking doesn't seem like something he'd do on his own.

And strained interactions between he and Starscream is quite likely. Most will probably chalk that up to history, and Starscream will act like it's nothing more. Since he's home more, Ratchet will hopefully notice the frost damage on his own. I would hope- he'll be depressed anyway, that'll need checking out. And yes, I figure Starscream can be smarter than he's given credit for- anger is a good weapon, but only when you know how to use it.

For everything you said there, thank you. I appreciate analytic comments, they are my butter. :)